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150 PHP with 1 free drink
FEBRUARY 27, 2009 FRIDAY

Saguijo Cafe and Bar,
7612 Guijo St., San Antonio Village, Makati City.

suporta naman! let's have fun 'coz finally we're graduating na!

Support for GARY GRANADA vs GMA Kapus0

2009-02-02T01:11:00.005+08:00

Gary Granada vs GMA Kapuso by dosomethingworthwhile

As a graduate of the Music production course, I know how Gary Granada feels every time he hears his copied work on air.

I feel aggravated and obviously affected kasi MUSIKERO AKO. If that happened to me... HINDI KO SILA TATANTANAN! (haha. just like Mike Enriquez's famous line. how ironic... gma show yun.)

Ang sakin lang, network sila... They should set an example... hindi yung dadaanin nalang sa lawyers nila. We're talking about Musician's rights here. Naghihirap na nga kami tas ultimong works namin NANAKAWIN PA!

First and foremost, before a piece can be called a "collective work" - everyone present should first have a verbal and written agreement that it is indeed a collective work. Dapat din, distinct ang usapan... (I don't really know the issue so I can't study the case more.. pwede ko kasi i-research provided I have all the facts)

ika nga sa Article VI SEC. 178.4 In the case of a work-commissioned by a person other than an employer of the author and who pays for it and the work is made in pursuance of the commission, the person who so commissioned the work shall have ownership of work, but the copyright thereto shall remain with the creator, unless there is a written stipulation to the contrary;

Eto yun, may claim siya because first of all, merong copy ang gma nung last submitted demo niya (malamang lamang) and second, rejected yung work niya so automatic na yun na terminated na ang anumang usapan na kanila na yung produkto eh nireject na nga nila.

Another way to fix this is kausapin yung gumawa nung BAGONG jingle... dun malalaman kasi kung ano ang basis nung work niya. Siya ang maiipit ngayon kasi siya ang may claim na cya ang sole owner nung new song. Imposible kasi na pareho sila ng pattern ni Gary Granada... Malamang lamang may PEG yan..

Yung peg ang sole proof na ginamit ung work niya. =)

For those who could suggest more helpful tips for him to win his case, here's his email:

garygranada@yahoo.com

Sir Gary Granada... I'm here to support you... We studied Business Music and we know when a work is copied or not... The network shouldn't act stupidly...

The most probable outcome is that from now on, composers wouldn't create quality music anymore... Ninanakaw na kasi... para saan pa?

Spread the word if you're a musician, a music lover or simply a believer of justice.

Underneath it all

2009-01-30T00:26:00.002+08:00

It hit me the first time and now I realized why not everyone wants to be in the advertising world.

Now more than ever, I see my teachers sincere realism and how real their words were... the reality that in this business, it's not how great it sounds, but how great it sells. Now I see why they branded the work as "nagpapaka-pokpok". (prostitute kung prostitue. =s)

You create what sells (even if you're whole creative mind says "NO") and as a musician, even if the work sounds so awful but as long as the producers wanted it that way... you have to sell your soul and create what they demand. (No matter how hideous... or stupid it is.)

Well, that is only one side of the coin. There's more things to it than meets the eye. I realized too that in this business, you need to toughen yourself up. And when I say 'toughen yourself up' --- I meant every word. You can't afford to be sensitive because someone's bound to get/hurt you.

Sometimes, they'll gun down your work and declare that it is the most hideous thing they've seen... and when you create what they want... you realized that what they want was the most embarrassing and most hideous thing YOU'VE created YOUR WHOLE LIFE. How ironic!

I'm not used to people criticizing my work... I just came straight from college not expecting to be in a world where you need not only to act and feel like a stone, but you have to be a lapdog too, in order to stomach what the client wants and be able to do it. It's a hard life.

I wonder what will happen to me... eventually... will I hate my work in the future?

portfolio

2009-01-26T00:54:00.001+08:00

My final film score project in school.

Original music by: Liz Lorenzo

Change?

2009-01-25T04:49:00.004+08:00

gusto ko magbago..
feeling ko kasi ang sama ko na.

malabo man, para saken, totoo.

di ko din alam kung ba't nanaman nagkakaganito.

kanina pa ako nagiisip ng paraan

upang maisalba ang nadarama.

pero paikot ikot lang ang dahilan

wala na bang magagawa?

naiirita na ako sa paulit ulit

na gulo dito.

ewan. ang labo.

di ko na alam ang sinasabi ko.

bow.

mind boggling

2009-01-24T05:17:00.002+08:00

A new break is coming. hehehe. so excited.

later!

How morbid can you get?

2009-01-17T13:26:00.003+08:00

I just got a text about another high school batchmate who committed suicide the other day.

I'm still in a state of shock because right now, we have more or less than 4 dead batchmates in the last 4 years. Talk about creepy, right?

The sad thing about it is that out of the 4, two of them were not the suicidal type. Both girls looked perfect in my memory... Both were cheerful in their own different worlds -- both seem confident enough.

4 years after, my memory of them are still the same... maybe it's the same reason why I can't accept the actual fact that they're gone.

Rest in peace, Chi Javier.

My condolences to your close friends and family.

Magnet High Street - AROK DIWA EVENT

2009-01-17T08:01:00.001+08:00

Last CALL: Mamaya na yun! 150 php entrance. Up Dharma Down, Mayonnaise, Fuseboxx and Many more. 9PM. Matatapuan ang magnet malapit sa krispy kreme. Punta na kayo! Ang di pumunta... may issues sa buhay. haha. kitakits.

Magnet High Street - AROK DIWA EVENT

2009-01-17T08:01:00.000+08:00

tired after work

2009-01-14T22:37:00.003+08:00

I've been in and out of work for more than a week now... and I'm glad to say that I finally got my hands on a project - a TV ad for jewelry.

We made it in groups... so basically, I feel that our project would be a bit easy for us.

Good thing about it is that we don't need to actually make something out of nothing.. we are asked to arrange the jingle and that's about it.

I hope to have more projects soon. I really need the cash... I want to treat my parents for a change... and besides, it would be really great if I spend my own money when I travel to the U.S. sometime this May. I really can't wait for that...

Anyway, got to rest now... I have a lot of things to do.

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Please go to Magnet Cafe High Street this saturday - January 17, 2009.

Up Dharma Down and Mayonnaise will be playing...

Fuseboxx, Eternal Now and Crude Oz will also play. Hope to see you there.

9pm - 150 php entrance.

Help us pack the place up, people. Thanks.

.AROK DIWA.

It ends on Feb 14

2009-01-07T04:22:00.002+08:00

I decided to end this blog on Feb 14 and I'm not sure if I'm gonna make another blog after this.

I pretty much want to keep my thoughts to myself this time... since I want my lyrics to be more personal.

Writing my thoughts in this blog made me realize that my life is not that boring. I figured that my life, with its usual drama, is filled with bittersweet memories which eventually made me wiser. It made me realize how blessed I really am. How lucky I am to be ... ME.

Who would've thought I used to have some sort of heart condition during high school? I remembered (and you can still find that particular story in my previous blog) I was in the girl's bathroom when I had my first attack... well, it was a minor one, but during that moment... I thought I was having a stroke! During that time, I felt helpless. It was one of those breaks where in you excuse yourself in the middle of the class and find yourself in an empty bathroom not expecting anything.

You can just imagine the horror of what happened next. Alone. Pain. Darkness. Suffocation. Let your imagination run wild and you'll picture the dilemma I was in. To make the whole story short, I struggled by myself because I know no one is there to help me, hear me, protect me.

The reason I brought the topic up is to show everyone the intensity of the word blessed and why it means a lot to me.

Without this hobby, I think I wouldn't have viewed the scenario as a blessing in disguise. I'll maybe think of it as a nightmare if I wasn't writing about it as detailed as possible.

Blogging has been a huge factor in my life but I think I'll learn to live without it. I'm thinking of having my own personal journal instead...

A notebook where there is no restrictions... something very private that only I can understand... and future scholars would someday decipher it... who knows... I might sell it in the future when I die. (just kidding. morbid thoughts again. sorry)

Oh well.. I got to stop talking now. I have some work to do. The reason for this post is to write the specific date of my final post. haha. how melodramatic.

I know some people who still reads this blog. heheehe. I don't really get why people find this interesting and email their response instead of tagging me in my message board. Isn't that more tiresome?

Anyway, thank you for your comments even if I don't know some of you personally. Hope you won't be disappointed... I mean, now that I'll be signing off soon... and perhaps, permanently.

Enjoy the memories. I'll keep you posted however.

Later.

Na disturb ako sa picture. =/

2009-01-04T18:29:00.000+08:00

di ko siya kinaya, men. Ang lupet lang tlga. Human trafficing yan. =c so sad. Creative ang concept pero... disturbing talaga. I can't move on.

Round up (part 1)

2008-12-31T23:37:00.000+08:00

PS. (syempre, nauna ung P.S. haha. Basahin niyo toh ng pinong pino... at baka lumabas ang pangalan niyo

dito... sooner or later. Ito ang inaabangang ROUND UP. Isang mahabang thought vomit tungkol sa pagtapos natin ng kolehiyo. charing.)

Sa pagsara ng taon meron sana akong gustong maatim... kaso, di pwede dahil bawal daw yun.

ngayon tuloy, iniisip ko kung sa buong taon ba na ito at sa buong taon kong pamamalagi sa BENILDE... eh sinayang ko nga lang ba ang buhay ko... o meron naman din akong napatunayan kahit kaunti sa pamamalagi ko dito.

Di tuloy maiwasan magmunimuni at magbilang kung ilang be

ses nga ba akong umiyak, o may katuturan nga ba ang pagaksaya ko ng luha sa aking pamamalagi... di din maiwasan magtaka kung meron nga bang nakapansin na nalulugmok ako sa hirap... o tulad ng nakasanayan, magaling lang talaga ako magbalatkayo... at wala ni isang nakapansin tulad ng dati.

Syempre kung merong pagbibilang ng luha, meron din pagbibilang ng masasayang alaala. Di ko tuloy alam kung nalampasan ba ng tawa ang luha sa daming pagpaparamdam niya ngayon taon.

**[[Pagpasensyahan ang kadramahang ito. Talagang lumalabas ang pagkamakatha ko kaya mala nobela ang dating ng pagsasalaysay na ito. Meron kasing mga bagay na dapat ilabas mo na lang sa buong madla, kesa kimkimin ang pakiramdam at sa huli, ikaw din ang magmumukhang talunan. hahaha. ano daw? may ganon?]]**

Merong iilang eksena sa utak ko na masasabi kong naging masaya ako. Isa na doon ang Retreat. Ang retreat ay isa sa pinakabigating sintomas na ang isang estudyante ay nalalapit ng magmartsa tungo sa tunay na mundo.

Noong nagretreat, di ko alam kung napansin nila Sarah C. at ni Shushi ang aking pagkaligalig noong napagtanto ko na sila ang makakasama ko sa retreat. Syempre masaya ako dahil sila ang first and only DORM MATES ko. Madami na kaming napagdaanan. Kumbaga sa buong paglalakbay ko sa kolehiyo, kasama ko na sila... rain or shine... tamarin man o hindi... may pasok o wala... sa csb main o sa sda... sa caf o sa jollibee... mrt o lrt... ministop o 7eleven... may songwri man o wala...

sa lahat... halos ka moment ko sila. hehe. (hindi naman siguro nagiging mushy ito? di kasi ako mushy.)

nabibilang ito sa happy moments dahil mas nakilala ko silang mabuti at masasabi kong di ako nagkamali na kilalanin pa sila ng husto. (Naks!) Naisip ko kasi, sila yung tipo na kung may mangyari man sa akin (which is sana wala), sila ang unang unang makikichismis para kamustahin ako at para maramdaman ko na hindi ako nagiisa. (wow, may ganon?)

Natutuwa akong naging ka-dorm ko sila. Madami akong natutunan sa kanila... ito ang iilang bagay na na-pick up ko sa kanila:

1. kailangan 2 hours before ka gigising kung gusto mo, picture perfect ang buhok mo.

2. Stress reliever ang umiyak sa gabi.

3. Pwede pala maging blower ang electric fan.

4. Hindi pala dapat ina-araw araw ang shampoo.

5. Maraming ways para maging perfect ang nails mo.

6. Wag hawakan ang pillow ng iba kung ayaw mong masawi.

7. Pwede kang magimbento ng tono, kahit wala kang hawak na instrumento.

8. hindi lang pala ako ang nagsusulat ng kanta na mataas para saken.

9. Mag ingat sa seesaw baka maipit ang daliri.

10. Wag kalimutan ang susi at ipagdasal na kung sakali na maiwan mo man, sana kupkupin ka ng taga kabilang kwarto.

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Isa sa pinakamasayang moment din other than noong RETREAT at yung DORM ay ang SONG WRITING CLASS.

Dito, masasabi ko na sa hirap ng dinanas ko... kulang ang supply ng blood bank para salinan ako. GANON ka-extreme!!! hehe. Sa sobrang extreme niya... pati pawis ko... DUGO na din.

Dito din nagtuos ang tawa at luha. Akala ko kasi pwede mo lang tawanan ang paninira ng kanta mo ng ibang tao -- or should I say, sirain ng mga nagmamagaling na AMATEURS. Akala ko, pwede kang magpaka-sellout at hayaan mo na lang sila na sirain ang kanta mo ng harap harapan ng hindi ka nasasaktan. Akala ko din, okay lang na sumbatan ka ng directors dahil daw di ka daw umaattend ng practice kahit na ba walang sinasabi sayong schedule yung SUKDULAN NG GALING na stage manager nila.

To make the long story short, I realized how dirty show business can get. They put the blame on others when the problem is too much for them to handle... and when everything is back to normal, they claim that they solved the problem all along. (Ay. biglang umenglish? hahaha. ano ba yan.)

Kahit ganoon ang buhay ko noong songwriting class, dito ko natutunan na hindi lahat ng bagay ay dapat daanin sa init ng ulo. Yun pa naman ang aking kahinaan.

Masasabi ko na ang adhikain ay hindi naging madali, pero ang resulta ng dugo't pawis na pakikipagsapalaran ay nadama ko noong natapos na ang lahat ng pagsubok.

Natamo ng aking grupo ang best song at best sound. Isang malaking dagok para sa mga amateurs at unprofessional na nakatrabaho namin.

Kakaiba lang talaga ang ganti ng kapalaran dahil ako ang sinabihan nilang 'walang ginagawa' - pero yung best song - Isa sa kakapirangot na awards na nakuha nila -- eh ako lang naman po ang nagsulat ng liriko. Pasensya na dahil nainsulto sila dahil wala daw talaga akong ginagawa.

(o diba? ang yabang? wahahaha. syempre, ang honor na yan kasali sina shushiness at c jeff dahil kasali sila sa paglapat ng musika. wala ang award, kung wala din sila.)

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ang sunod naman na nakakatuwang moment, syempre, walang iba kung hindi ang mga birthday blowout ko... yung bday ko na ginanap kina vidaness... kung saan naabutan tayong lahat ng malupitang bagyo! and despite the weather condition, nagpunta pa din kayo. wahahaha. ang alam ko nag signal number 4 ata yun tas inuwi namin ni chasy si Sarah sa Laguna. hehe. lupet. (2nd year pa yun. hehe.) Yung birthday ko din na ginanap sa may kapitolyo... naku po, nakalimutan ko pangalan nung place... something BOY yung name nun... apparently meron din sa south nun. barbeque boy? (memory gap). ah basta. Chaka syempre yung this year medyo memorable kasi, in fairness... naka attend na si shushiness. hehehe. =D consistent ang pagiging absent niya pag bday ko eh... =/

first time na nagpakain ako ng kabatch... usually kasi, painom lagi ang libre ko. Napagtanto ko na napapanahon na pakainin ko ang mga hindi umiinom... tas painumin ko nalang ang mga umiinom. hehe. in short, feeling mayaman ako at dalawa ang naging celebration ko.

Yan ay ang yellow cab celebration ko plus yung post-birthday celebration ko after nung jam namin sa may metrowalk - jj's ata yung name nung place kung saan natapos yun ng mga 3 or 4 am dahil nagpahintay pa yung isang tao dyan. (hulaan niyo kung sino)

Memorable yung yellow cab sa isang medyo mababaw na kadahilanan... hehehe. sa totoo lang, I can't move on kasi binigyan ako ng cake. hehehe. =p favorite cake ko kasi yung mango na lasang ice cream kaya pag naaalala ko yun, kinikilig ako.

hahaha. ang labo!

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Naisip ko din, hindi lahat ng bagay tungkol kay BOY ay nabahidan na. In fairness, nasa listahan kahit papaano ang nagiisang moment na gumawa siya ng effort para sa akin at seryosohang pinasaya ako, guys.

Ito ang excerpt ng effort... ibabahagi ko yung card -- (dapat yung xmas message ni Monty ang ilalagay ko dito kaso na misplace ko yung cd...) Kaya dapat yun yung ilalagay ko kasi nalaman ko na noong time pala na yun, tapos na yung class pala niya nung 2:30 pm pa... at talagang hinintay nya mag 8pm para makunan siya ng video para sa bday message ko. not to mention may tinaming niya yung bday card ko, guys. Kahit papaano, naging close kami ni BOY. Binugaw ko pa yan para maibahagi sa mundo na marunong siya mag keyboard at meron siyang angking potensyal.

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Isa pa sa mga naging highlights ng aking career (ay! haha. career?) ay ang maging ka-THESIS partner si TJ Fortune. (Yess.. haba ng hair!) Pangalan palang fortunate na ako.. hahaha. (hirit pa eh.) Bakit kamo? hehe. well, simple lang naman ang buhay... sa dinami daming tao... mas malaki ang probability na makikipag-tagteam siya sa ibang tao kesa saken.

Happy ako dahil it's a first. Never ko pa siyang naka-partner sa kahit ano... di ko alam kung sinasadya niya ba o talagang ayaw niya lang talaga ako maging partner dahil may hidden galit pala siya saken. wahaha. joke lang. =p nage-emote lang ako. charing.

alam mo, TJ. One of a kind ka. Ewan ko kung bakit minsan eh... nagiging insecure ka. Ang labo nga dahil habang kinaiinggitan ka ng buong madla... feel na feel mo naman na walang nakaka-appreciate sayo. Haller. Parang ininsulto mo lang ang existence namin. hehe. at ni Maite.

Isa kang malaking kawalan ng Blue Eagles dahil hindi nila alam kung ano ang pinakawalan nila. (Naks!)

((On a serious note... para sa pamilya mo yung linyang yun... half meant yung sa blue eagles. haha))

Masaya ako dahil isa ka sa dahilan kung bakit DL ako this term. hihihihi. Can't help but laugh. anlabo pero kinikilig nanaman ako sa tuwa.

TJ, kitakits sa trabaho. hehe. Ikaw ay binugaw ko (at binugaw ka din ni Shushiness kaya pasalamatan mo din siya. hehe.) dahil naniniwala kami sa iyong kakayahan at potensyal bilang isang musikero. Pag ang puso at diwa mo ang ginawa mong puhunan sa iyong trabaho, naniniwala akong lagpas pa sa excellent ang gawa mo... kumbaga sa IQ test, SUPERIOR ang grado mo. =D

Ay, isa pang advice... kunin mo lang ang makakaya mong gawin. May tendecy ka kasing maging masochistic... Kaya bilang kaibigan mo, matuto kang tumangi. Yan din ang advice ko para sa pamilya mo... Hindi ka ACHAY, 'day! Magandang pagsilbihan mo sila... pero merong kaibahan ang pakiusap at utos... kesa sa pang-aapi! yun lang naman. bow.

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OctoberFEST with Vidaness.

Isa ito sa highlight ng taon ko... Biruin nyo, nakita ko ang third eye blind ng up close and personal! hehehe. although I have no pictures to prove it, May pic ako ni vida na kasama niya yung vocalist. hehehe. Syempre, masaya ako dahil kung wala si Vida, walang inside access sa backstage.

Di tuloy ako naniniwala na introvert si Vidaness. hehehe. Walang introvert na nakikipagkaibigan sa hindi kilala. hahaha. Ibang klase ka talaga, Vida. Sana yung change mo, tuloy tuloy.

Naging masaya ako noong panahon na yun dahil nakabonding ko si Vidavids after a very long time. In fairness naman kay Vida, isa siya sa mga una kong nakasamang magliwaliw sa kolehiyo... Puro Gig after Gig... after Gig...Lagi nalang siya ang kasama ko... and paminsan minsan, si Chasy din. Halos ganon ang routine namin noong frosh... Hanggang sa nagkasawaan na kaming manood ng gig at nanood na lang kami ng sine at nag food trip nalang.

(uy, Vida... di pa natutuloy yung saisaki marathon naten.)

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Tagaytay escapades with Chasy and James C.

Minsan, impulse lang ang usapan... and before we can bat an eyelash... kumakain na kami ng Crispy pata sa Max sa Tagaytay. Humihithit at bumubuga ng malinis na hangin o kaya'y umiinom na kami sa may Starbucks... Asta ba'y parang 30 minutes away lang kami sa Maynila. Ganoon ang trip namin nila Chasy noon. Although di pa kami close ni Klemmerness noon... Masayang kabonding silang dalawa (provided na dapat sober si Klemmerness. wahahaha. peace.)

Actually lahat ng Tagaytay trips ko masaya... Maisasama mo na dito ang masayang birthday bash ni Sarahness dun sa lugar nila Elizalde. It's very picturesque... ang sarap balikan... magpapaka-photographer ako. Or di kaya.... magmo-moment ako dun... di ka kasi mauubusan ng inspiration dun dahil exterior palang, pwede ka na gumawa ng lovesong. ehehehe. Ganon ang drama. Eh ano pa kaya kung andun ka sa may pool... at may hawak kang blankong papel... Makakagawa ka na ng symphony. (okay... medyo OA, pero ang ganda kasi nung lugar talaga... It's a silent work of art. hahaha. may ganon?)

I remembered... noong nandun sa Elizalde... Priceless yung moment kasi hinika ako noon at si Jeff... imbis na tulungan ako... nagkwento pa siya tungkol sa Uncle niyang hinihika noong araw. (o dba? at least kahit hinihika na ako... naalala ko pa yung kwento ni Jeff. wahahaha.)

Marami akong natutunan at narealize sa Elizalde, in fairness naman. Ito ang iilan sa mga iyon:

1. Narealize ko na madaldal talaga ang mga lalaki. Kahit ako, isang madaldal na nilalang din... ay sumuko sa powers ni Jeff. hehe.

2. Pag pinagsama mo si Vida at si Jeff... Everlasting ang kwento, men! Matatawa ka nalang dahil lahat wasak na... naguusap pa din ang dalawa.

3. Meron din palang vain na hiphop. hahahaha.

4. Magandang idea ang may bedroom sa tabi ng pool... Maganda ang lighting. Very idyllic and artsy fartsy.

5. Marami kang matutunan kung titignan mo ang isang natatanging kwento sa iba't ibang angulo.

6. Masarap talaga ang buko pie.

7. Nakakatuwang mag racquetball sa basement. magandang hobby yun at talagang papayat ka.

8. Kakaiba nga talaga ang collection ng isang mayamang tao. (To the point na pati lalagyanan ng sorbetes eh pinatos na din.)

9. Nakakawala ng init ng ulo ang malamig na panahon. Mas effective pa sa anger management.

10. Iba talaga ang hangin ng Tagaytay kesa sa Maynila... nakakalungkot tuloy alalahanin.

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Actually mahaba pa ito. hehe. abangan ang part 2. =p wala pa yung drama eh... chaka medyo, pagod na ako. hahahahaha.

Post holiday syndrome

2008-12-27T17:08:00.002+08:00

I feel so down today... kaya ang labo dahil there's nothing to be sad about.

Di ko tuloy alam kung dahil ba ito sa pending grad sa Feb... or dahil pagdating ng January... Di na ako pwede mamalusot.

I am armed with the right tools to walk right through the real world but somehow, there's something pulling me back. It might be some of my old insecurities... pero bat kasi now lang siya lumalabas??? at bakit may relapse?

Kakatapos lang ng pasko tas todo drama mode naman ako. Parang tanga lang ng isa't kalahati.

Kung mapagbibigyan... I honestly don't want to feel this way kasi gumagawa ako ng mushy love song na ipapakanta ko or ibibigay ko kay Sarah Caballero sa future. In fairness, BALLAD. hahaha.

Kung maririnig niyo lang yung songs na ginagawa ko before nung ballad... hihimatayin kayo.. Super diverse. hahaha. pati ako nalito at nabobo dahil nagpapakamushy ako. Iba ang attack niya dahil piano siya tas lalagyan ko ng strings un at chorale pag sinipag.

Naisip ko tuloy na since hindi mushy person c Sarah (and ako din pala, for that matter. haha) Kung tatangihan niya yung kanta... Sana kantahin ni Lani Misalucha... hahaha. TAAS NG PANGARAP.

Prior to that song, puro alternative and house music ang ginagawa ko. Takte, so weird. Pati House music sinasabak ko na. Naghahanap nga ako ngayon ng patches for world. Gusto ko talaga ng African music... and since I can't find anything I want... ako nalang gagawa ng sarili kong sound trip. hahaha.

Nga pala, just so you'd know... kahit wala na nagbabasa nitong dead blog kong ito... Kung sakaling mapadaan ang mga friends ko... high school friends... I have a band na pala. I remembered na napaka supportive niyo saken at todong pinipilit niyo ko magbanda ever since nung sumali ako sa mga songfest... hehe.

Sorry dahil tinangihan ko ang mga offers niyo. (haha. feeling ang daming nag alok) During that time, I felt that I wasn't worthy enough to be in a band. Nangangain ng oras yun. haha. feeling talaga. Pero regardless, yun na nga... this time, sineryoso ko na since graduate na ako. FINALLY. Ayoko sumabak sa ganon ng basta basta lang. I'm not doing this for the fame... or basta lang makiuso. I'm here for the music. This time I can honestly say that I know what I'm doing... and I have four years of college education to prove it. Hindi ako nag AB-Music Production para lang maging sellout at makiuso.

I believe that my batch, and the batches before me are here to change the flow and make the music more intellectual. Haha. feeling talaga. Sorry. Madaming dapat baguhin at ayusin kasi.

Ang buong pag-aaral ko ng Musika ay isang matinding AWAKENING. Kung alam niyo lang... it's a very tempting industry... pero it has a lot of flaws.

Anyway, bago ko pa ikwento ang prinsipyo ko sa musika... kailangan tapusin ko na itong entry na ito. In born ang kadaldalan ko. hahahhaa.

Sana di umulan. (haha. san galing yun?)

Eh kasi... pag umulan.. baka mas lalo akong magdepre-depressan tas ako nanaman ang talo...

tas ung lovesong na para kay Sarah and/or Lani Misalucha... di pa matapos. haha.

Guys... HELPPP... ayoko ng ganito... hindi kasi ako EMO. haha. Pop ako! =s

Mensahe.

2008-12-24T18:53:00.000+08:00

I love you, guys! hehe. Wala akong load. mahirap ako... kaya ayun. dito nalang. take care.

Merry Christmas and God Bless!

Award winning question

2008-12-22T06:54:00.002+08:00

After all that's been said and done...

Why am I still standing here?

Why do I feel the need to exhaust myself just to gain a couple of z's?

and why can't I move on?

I'm starting to sense another tragedy here...

and the sad thing about it is that... I'm still up... Physically, mentally and emotionally drained...

I've been awake for like 24 hours now...

and still... I CAN'T SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!

No wonder I faint a lot lately. Weird. Weird. WEIRD!!!!

Heartfelt passion in every note

2008-12-07T05:23:00.008+08:00

I was prepared for the worst when I placed the CD of 'Once' in my player. I wasn't really expecting anything from it since the reason I had it was due to a 'Buy 1 take 1' promo in a movie shop.

I was hoping in vain that the CD I picked was something worth while... I had a lot of hapless moments when I ran out of movie options to purchase... Thank God, it wasn't among them...

'ONCE' turned out to be the exact opposite of what I expected.

It was something much better...

The duet part actually gave me goosebumps. It was THAT GOOD. It felt so sincere and the way they just sang it brought the intent and the passion in a much profound level.

I recommend everyone to watch the film... Especially if you're a music lover or a music student like me...

It's the kind of music that we all hope to make... Heartfelt, sincere and beautiful.

The song won an oscar for the movie, by the way. And I never doubted why...

ONCE may be one of the best films that were not overly advertised. (this may be the reason why only limited people knew about it)

I hope to write something as true and as passionate someday. ONCE is a love story of 2 different people bound together by music.

Watch it and you won't be disappointed.

Over and Out.

Cakes and Tears

2008-12-03T00:19:00.004+08:00

GRABE! I Can't move on... hehe. thank you James C. (my band's future producer) hahaha para sa cake. I love it. Once you pop, you can't stop. Charing! =p

Salamat ulit sa mga bumati. I love my cake. =D

THANK YOU LIST

2008-12-02T08:23:00.003+08:00

Maraming Salamat sa mga taong bumati sa akin kahapon, akala ko nakalimutan niyo na... (karma siguro dahil meron akong memory gap. haha)

Sa sobrang dami niyong hindi nakalimot, kinailangan ko pang patahimikin ang cellphone ko (take note, dalawa pa silang nagdu-duet), para lang makatulog ako... Consistent eh, by the hour o kada 4 mins ata simula noong pumatak ang 12:00! Haha. Parang pang-artista lang. haha.

Kaya naman kung minsan, di maiwasan hindi na mareplyan ang kasunod niyong text dahil umaapaw na siya. Kaya pasensya kung pagkatapos ko mag-thank you sa text, minsan, di marereplyan yung susunod na mensahe ng pangangamusta... Madaling araw na iyon, at yung utak ko medyo ngarag kasi either may nagtext pa ulit, o may tumawag naman.

SOSYAL. haha.

Una sa listahan ng pasasalamat ay ang mga kapatid kong hindi umalis sa kama ko para batiin ako ng sakto sa aking kaarawan.

Salamat naman sa mga sunod-sunod na nag-YM saken dahil nagkataon, naglalaro ako ng facebook application noong panahon na iyon kaya naabutan akong batiin. haha.

Anyway, isang mahabang THANK YOU pa ito so sisimulan ko na:

Salamat kina France & James L. / Francis Josef / Mario Consunji / Maite ni TJ / James Klemer/ Monty Mayo / Hazel Tan / TJ Fortune / Tita Celle (haha, nauna pa sa anak niya) / Dad & Ma (hehe.) / Christine Mercado / Dianne Claveria / Guitang (uy, nagulat ako ah. =D nakakatuwa) / Incez Leynes / Sarah Caballero (future officemate!)/ Richelle Dionisio / Vidavids / Noe sis / Shushiness (officemate!) / Liza Castrillo / Winchel D. / Lawrence Napoco / Diana Peng / Elroy Montano / Lean Maro (hehe.) / Bamboo Bhoj / Nikki De Leon / AG Community / Ms. Andrea / Sarah Hethcoat / Underminer (band?)/ Mary Magdalene (thanks for the free album. hehe.) / Weijd Chung / Migs (prod)/ Casiano Clan (take note, CLAN... masyadong madami) / Lorenzo Clan (ito din. haha) / Aaron B. (humabol pa)

yung iba pa, di ko na makalkal sa phone ko. Basta thank you talaga.

=) ingat.

I want it to be true. . .

2008-11-30T16:02:00.002+08:00

さよなら　おやすみ　また明日　それじゃね
何度もつぶやく　繰り返しつぶやく

I totally can relate with 'oyasumi' right now.

Weird 'coz I feel so damn tired and yet I can't seem to calm myself down...

I'm not sure whether it's the effect of the sizzling keema from last night... (or was it early morning?) or simply because of the fact that my birthday is tomorrow and I can't help but wonder why I feel a bit depressed about it.

Part of me don't want to grow up just yet... I still want to be young, and reckless... and free.
Another part is dying to graduate and enjoy life at my own pace, and time... and whatever.

shucks....

ANG LABOOOOO. I want to sleep... bat ba di ako makatulog?!!?!? yun lang naman un eh.

takot ata ako magbirthday kaya napapraning ako.

_**__

ELLEGARDEN - Oyasumi「おやすみ」
ELLEGARDEN - Oyasumi「おやすみ」

Oyasumi「おやすみ」

さよなら　おやすみ　また明日　それじゃね
sayonara oyasumi mataashita sorejane

何度もつぶやく　繰り返しつぶやく
nandomoutsubuyaku kurikaeshitsubuyaku

ちょっと疲れたよ　眠っていいかな
chottotsukaretayo nemutteiikana

ちょっといかれてる　ぐらいがいいんだってさ
chottoikareteru guraigaiindattesa

明日は少しだけ　いい人間になろうと思う
ashitawatsukoshidake iiningenninarouto omou

君ならなんて言うんだろうね
kiminaranante iundaroune

さよなら　おやすみ　また明日　それじゃね
sayonara oyasumi mataashita sorejane

何度もつぶやく　繰り返しつぶやく
nandomoutsubuyaku kurekaeshitsubuyaku

明日は少しは　ましだと思うから
ashitawatsukoshiwa mashidato omoukara

シーツにくるまって　少し眠るよ
shi-tsunikurumatte tsukoshinemuruyo

I't not that good deal
I'm just waiting for you to call me up
To tell me I'm not alone
To tell me I'm not alone

ただ
tada

捨てれば楽になるなんて聞くんだけど
tsutereba rakuninarunte kikundakedo

君ならなんて言うんだろうね
kiminaranante iundaroune

さよなら　おやすみ　また明日　それじゃね
sayonara oyasumi mataashita sorejane

何度もつぶやく　繰り返しつぶやく
nandomoutsubuyaku kurekaeshitsubuyaku

さよなら　おやすみ　また明日　それじゃね
sayonara oyasumi mataashita sorejane

ベッドは広くて　外はもう明るい
beddowahirokute sotowamouakarui

Isa kang malaking NUISANCE

2008-11-22T11:07:00.002+08:00

to the core, dude.

Di ko alam kung ano pa ang dapat na sign para malaman mong SORRY, di talaga. Move on na.

I really don't get it. Sadya ka bang manhid o you're trying to be manhid?

Ang saken lang naman, kung yung gulo mo ang magpapasaya sayo... takte, pwede don't pester others. Hinahayaan ka na nga eh! Pero kaibigan ko wag mo guluhin. Graduating na yan, madami silang issues sa buhay nila. Wag mo na dagdagan.

Wag ka din demanding, dude. To begin with, we're not friends. Harsh ba? Well, wala pa yan... Honest lang ako. Ni hindi pa nga tayo naguusap ng masinsinan tas ganon ka umasta? Ni hindi ka nga makapagsalita eh... So anong nangyari at ganyan ka, ha?

ay, nanghihimasok ka na? baka mamaya, makita kita umaaligid na sa bahay ko at sa may 6th floor. HUY, sakit na yan.

Not to mention, (eto matindi toh ah....) wag ka din feeling close sa friends ko. Alam mo yung style na ginagawa mo? MY GOD. Wala ka pa nga sa starting line - disqualified ka na.

At kung makahirit ka sa kanila kala mo kung sino ka. Sumusobra ka na ah! Kung ano ano pang favor yung hinihingi mo!

Simple lang ang mundo. Sinabi ko na din ang sagot. Sorry kung di talaga. Sorry din kung wala talaga. Sorry kasi abnoy yung taste mo. Sorry dahil since ganyan ka, I don't think kakayanin ko pang maging kaibigan ka.

Pasensya na talaga dahil wala akong mai-o-offer sayo na kahit ano. Clearly, this is not working out and obviously, you're doing much damage than necessary.

Despite the fact na... well, siguro, maganda naman ang intention mo.

pero either way, I'm closing my doors. Pati bintana. at lahat ng ventilation.

I personally think na makakatulong sayo ang lumayo. And please, kalimutan mo na nga na nakita mo ko ever dahil talagang na-denggoy ka lang.

O napuwing. or malamang naalimpungatan ka, dude. Kaya ka ganyan ngayon.

Haaaay, GULAY. what a life.

I don't think na seseryosohin mo ito dahil nga praning ka... At isipin mo hindi ikaw ito.

IKAW ITO.

Pero, dude. Seryoso. Wag ka na magpakita... baka ung konting respeto baka mawala pa. You're starting to cross the line and I might hate you for good.

Senti-Sentihan

2008-11-20T21:35:00.002+08:00

Ito ang pinakabago kong kanta...

Dedicated kay Papa Casiano, Kryzelle Cruz, Mom ni Chasy, Lolo Bongco... mga kabatch ko nung High School na nasa langit na... Para din ito sa mga taong nawalan ng minamahal at mga taong hanggang ngayon ay nangungulila para sa kanila. =c

(Liz, Kryzelle and the whole Dramatics class with Ms. Crisel Consunji)

Minsan, hassle lang isipin na sana sabay na kayo ga-graduate... only to find out na wala na. Di pa nabubuo ung journey, nakaalis na cya.

Rest in Peace.. till we meet again.

BY the way, medyo mahina... preferably magheadset kayo. un lang.

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Music and Lyrics by: Liz Lorenzo

Habilin

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Kung sakali man marinig mo sa langit

Hatid ko ay pag-ibig...

Hanggang Sa Muli.

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Kakantahin daw yan ng banda ko... so malamang, baka next time... hindi na yan ung version.

Habilin (rough draft) - Liz Lorenzo

*end*

New Chapter, A New Page

2008-11-16T05:01:00.003+08:00

After 4 years, I finally decided to throw the past template out for good and change it to a simpler skin for a change. Don't get your hopes too high though since it is still in black. I decided to change the feel of it since I'm finally graduating...

As you can see, I've been writing a lot lately... Something I haven't done in a while.

The reason for the sudden babbling is for the simple fact that once I've graduated, I'm gonna leave this blog forever. Just like what I did to my previous blog (totally me). It is sad to actually say goodbye to this blog, but like my life, I want this blog to serve as another chapter. Or simply a storage of little truths about what I've been through during my college life.

I'm still thinking if I'll create another one for my post-College life... but then again, I might not push through with it since most of me is published in the web somewhere. =p I might consider quitting for good since I've been blogging for more or less than 8 years straight now... since 1st year high school! Extreme, right?

Well, if ever I decide to make another one again, I might not mention the new page in here anymore. The next blog might be a bit personal this time -- or somewhat anonymous. I don't know... let's just see.

ANYWAY, since I'm here and prepping up the new template, I'm going to post here my previous contacts or list of blog buddies.

To be honest, I'm too lazy to check whether those sites are still active or not... but regardless, they're my friends so I'll paste it here...

It can serve as my buddy history or something.

.Exits.

furan

Nikki

Camille

Liza

Jikki

dian

ale

kam

luisa

Hazel

Juico

charlene

Pinky

bvergs

Marielle

Maggie

Rina

Tara

musnit

Vea

Gene

Joy

Ada

Jovy

Panlax

Chum

james

incez

camille2

ada[2]

sarahO

nikki2

noe2

sarahC

chasy

aidz

jaja

kei

ynga

.Musa - sounds and stuff.

2008-11-16T01:08:00.002+08:00

Just finished listening to my 'newly added song' playlist in my IPOD. Never thought I would enjoy it so much since most of the songs were given by my friend who has an immensely different taste in music.

First in the list was Vanessa Hudgens sophomore album entitled Identified.

Okay, wait for it.
Before giving my opinion, I would like all of you to view this in a musician's perspective. It would be better to view it that way to avoid being labeled as bias prejudice and close-minded.

Vanessa Hudgens (Identified)

The album was quite satisfactory and at least this time, they consistently focused on one genre - which is Dance Pop or Club Pop. (Unlike 'V' - which also tried to venture into a mixture of Pop/RnB) - Well, I'm guessing she's going the same route as Hilary Duff in terms of musical direction (Only difference is that Duff was more of the edgy kind of Pop before she ventured the Dance Pop Category.)

For my personal taste, i'd say that I favor the first album more since that album got my kind of Pop. But I have to admit that I did like a couple of new songs in the second album. Not to mention the fact that if you listen to it consistently, the album grows on you sooner or later - thanks to the superb mixing and mastering.

The songs I liked in this album are entitled: "Don't Leave", "Don't ask why", "Paper cut" and to my great surprise: "Hook it up".

There's a reason why I chose these songs. For the first choice: "Don't Leave" - I don't know if you noticed but this song has a lot of voicing all through out the song and the panning is amazing. Same as the third choice which is "Paper Cut" but then... I just have to point out, both songs have the same feel and style as Jordin Sparks album. I think for me, "Don't Leave" sounds a bit like "Now You Tell Me" in the chorus part and the song "Paper Cut" has the same feel in the Piano part.
Or maybe they just used the same chords? I'm not sure but it feels so familiar that's why I liked those songs... hmm, I wonder if they have the same songwriters?

The reason I liked "Don't ask why" is for the lyrics and the intro. And as for "Hook it up" - I personally don't know. I think it's because of the chorus? ...which sounded a bit like some Nelly song I've heard before. I forgot the title. I think it was a soundtrack for an Adam Sandler film.

Anyway, the album all in all is not that bad. If you like Hilary Duff's later works (Post-Lizzie Mcguire) I'm sure you'll like this album.

=+=

Okay, next on my list is among my favorites. I just added this album the other day. The album is a soundtrack for a movie and is currently number 1 in the billboard charts - a great feat for a movie which hasn't been shown yet. It is also currently the number 1 album in Itunes. Did you figure it out already?

TWILIGHT
The Original Motion Picture Soundtrack

It consists of songs from my favorite band: Muse! and some songs from Paramore, Mute Math, Linkin Park, Iron and Wine and even from the actor who's playing Edward Cullen - Rob Pattinson, there's also Blue Foundation, The Black Ghosts, Collective Soul and the scorer - Carter Burwell for "Bella's Lullaby"

What can I say? I liked it all! Even the ones performed by Paramore! I mean, I personally don't like the band (No offense) but their song is really nice - I mean lyric-wise it fits the movie or the book I'm visualizing in my head. It's among my favorites actually.

I really can't wait for the movie to come out. I've read the book a long time ago, wishing it would one day become a movie. Well, thank goodness I don't have to wait for so long.

My rating for the soundtrack is 5 out 5 stars. (Ipod format. hehe.) The reason? Well, it's really not because of the Movie per se - I mean, I haven't watched it for crying out loud! I rated it that way because of the lyrics and patterned it to the Twilight book I've read in the past. I mean, by now... I have an idea when and where a specific song would be played in the movie.

=D that's how good it is!

One more thing, Rob Pattinson sounds just like Jonathan Rhys Meyer - I mean same style as his character in August Rush. Nice!

=*=

Back to the songs given by my friend...

THE SCRIPT
(album name is self-entitled: The Script)

I personally LOVE IT. I mean, I wish I could write as good as them. I feel a bit bitter, wishing I had the idea 'The man who can't be moved' first. (I felt the very same bitterness when I also heard Muse's absolution) The whole album is amazing lyric-wise and well, a bit good music-wise. Though I don't really like the musical style, their lyrics is the sole reason why the whole album grew on me. My rating for this album would be 4/5. 5/5 for the lyrics and 3/5 for the music.

I guess that's the reason they're called The SCRIPT to begin with... it's the LYRICS that matters... and for me? I feel the same way.

=*=

Sara Bareilles
(Little Voice)

I enjoyed listening to her album -- She's really good and this time melodic wise (her lyrics is really good, too). With the use of simple chord progressions, she somehow manages to make something special out of the limited chords she has.

Notable songs of hers are: "Gravity", "One Sweet Love", "Fairytale" and "Between The Lines"

She really has a great voice. I think everyone should get a copy of her album. Her words are relatable and bittersweet. It's a good choice for chilling out in a rainy day. Hehe.

"Between the Lines" is the one that I like most - it's just the way I like it - simple and nice.

=*=

more to come next time

=*=

OT

Just watched a documentary about people who have CP (Cerebral Palsy). I'll help them someday. Taga niyo yan sa bato.

New leaf

2008-11-10T02:09:00.002+08:00

Found some great music from the net.

I found this band from My Space and they're hell of a lot better than Paramore. (No offense to all Paramore fans out there)
They're really GOOD not just because they sound great... but lyric-wise - you can feel that they really KNOW what they're doing. (Unlike other artists out there who focus more on the music rather than what matters most in a song - the lyrics - which serves as the core and SOUL of the piece).

I could feel their words and personally, this only happened to me.. Maybe once or twice in my life? hehe. (listening to MUSE and Killswitch Engage's Last Serenade had that effect on me)

The lyrics just resonates with me. I mean, seriously, I'm really not easy to please.

I added them in my MySpace account and decided to promote them here in my blog.

I know they'll make it big. I know a great band when I see one... or hear one. hehe.

The name of the band is Renfue (Ren-few) - they're an american band and although they're still new... they're rocking the American Indie scene with their music. And with the release of their album, (they have an EP released on itunes), they gain more fans everyday.

visit their Myspace to know more about them.

http://www.myspace.com/renfue

the song I heard from them is entitled Redemption.

I think that is by far their best song yet. Check them out to see what I mean. =D

ang bagong yugto

2008-11-09T04:20:00.001+08:00

masaya, nakakaantig at nakakatuwa. Nothing changed.

kite runner

2008-10-28T05:15:00.000+08:00

....

It's just sad to know that I don't know you anymore

OJT - ang kakaibang mundo ng audio post prod

2008-10-19T00:44:00.000+08:00

[[ Nothing against the contract is mentioned here, this is merely a reaction to the materials seen in the premises of the company. This is solely for the purpose of expressing my freedom of speech. nothing more, nothing less. thank you. ]]

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Today, I've watched a bunch of movies and trailers. Nakakatuwa talaga ung OJT kasi first hand mo nakikita ung process ng mainstream films.

Based on what I've seen so far, part 1 and 2 of My only u is actually good. I mean, sound design and incomplete ADR palang ang andun pero me and shushi were laughing our heads off. Hehe. Magaling yung director. Hindi ako mabilis matawa pero ung phasing nung film, pwede! =) malaki ang potential nung film... malamang kikita un.

Another film din is Land down under ba yun? I can't remember. hehe. Nakakatuwa ung nag-sound sweep (tama ba?) kasi tinuturuan niya kami... In fairness mahirap ung ginagawa niya kasi walang dubbing so medyo mahirap linisin ung sounds na ang basihan lang ay boom mics and lapel... Hindi lang kasi volume manipulation ang kailangan niyang gawin, pati pantayin ung ambiance ng bawat scene inaayos niya para maging consistent... not to mention na ang hassle kasi dahil hindi controlled ung sounds sa background, ang daming peak and mga unnecessary noise tulad ng pink noise in between dialogues. Nakakaloka.

Ung sumunod naman trailer ng Dayo... napaka-ganda nung scoring especially ung part na pinakita na ung title... Saktong sakto lang ung timing and build up. Parang disney. Kung sino man nagscore okay ginawa niya. build up kung build up, very catchy... I like it.

.end.

homophobia and the sad effects of drinking

2008-10-18T12:26:00.000+08:00

They did it again. Shame ON ME! As much as I want to believe it is not true... I guess, dapat SANAY na ako. I've been in the exact situation 2 times in a row. It is sad to say na meron ata akong CURSE in terms of... interests and likes?

Feeling ko nga yesterday... wala lang yun and I am not affected. Takte. Hindi papala nag-sink in.... Affected ako kasi na-denggoy ako. Shame on me talaga kasi the first time, parang ako ung lalake. My God. And now... mas hassle ung ma-confirm ung ayaw mong paniwalaan... (ay! HOPING pala! hahaha)

Oh well, the term "baklang bakla" -- nakaklungkot lang. hehe. sayang lang talaga.

Oh well, I should've known... I just didn't want to believe what I'm seeing.

I doubt naman na nagbago after all these years... hahaha. dream on. (ay! bitter?)

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Mukhang meant ako maging mag-isa lang talaga forever. (parang twilight. woeh.) Kasi 5 na sila ah! tas isa dun may proposal at ung isa hoping ako. (dati...)

in conclusion, (wow. parang paper!) isa lang talaga ang nasa saloobin ko:

"bakit... baKIT...? BAKIT!??!!??!"

BOW.

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this is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending.
this is the way that we love
and it's forever
But live the rest of our lives
but not together
MIKA-HAPPYENDING
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in relation to yesterday's happening... isang tula. charing. or lyrics. wrote it kasi galit ata (or galit talaga) saken ung isa naming kasama dahil nga medyo malakas na ung tama ko tas nahiritan ko siya... tas dapat secret lang un... tas narinig nung mga tao ung di dapat sabihin... OOOPS. Wrong move. Although I regretted it as soon as I said it. Pero what can I do? Nasabi na eh... Can't really take it back anymore. too bad for me talaga. Pero I sincerely apologize.

Kaya if you're reading this sorry. tactless ako pag lasing na. Aminado ako... nasasabi ko nga dati pin number ko... eh yun pa kaya na medyo... hindi talaga secret saken... pero secret sayo... SORRY!!!

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I’ve already said it
And I can’t take it back
You hated me for that
Tactless of me but it’s a fact

Go on, Go on and don’t talk back
It’s not like I pulled you down,
It just came out of my mouth,
No harm intended by that.

So don’t blame me,
It’s a different spirit in me,
Without its influence I won’t spill.
Too late for that I had my fill.
And now I can’t go back.

I tried what I can do to undo things,
I tried to take it all back
I tried apologizing
It’s up to you to decide

I tried what I can do to undo things,
I tried to take it all back
I tried apologizing
It’s up to you to decide

I’ve already said it
And I can’t take it back
You hated me for that
And now I'm sorry,
I'm sorry

It’s up to you to decide
Sorry 'coz I can't take those words back.

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1pm 101808
I'm sorry
(c) liz lorenzo
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.Assured.

2008-08-29T13:54:00.001+08:00

sayang lang... kulang sa time eh. kung di siguro ako ngarag, kinareer ko ito.
[[OT: kung gusto niyo magpa-score, game ako. pero this time may bayad na. Negotiable ang presyo. hahaha.]] Anyway, Wrijimu Final project ko ito.

hindi ito ang aking finest work. duh. wala ngang time eh. although sana, may pwede pang magawa... aayusin ko ito balang araw... itaga niyo yan sa bato!

pasensya sa boses... may pagka-bedroom voice. hahaha. ganon ka-gahol sa oras.

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Assured
music and lyrics:liz lorenzo
wrijimu: about myself. am i prepared?
minimum of 1min - 1:30 max
august 27, 2008
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I'm not scared at all.
I feel I'm ready for what lies ahead of me.
I'm sure I can handle anything you throw at me.
All I'm saying is I prepared for this.

Sure, there will be (some) problems
but I don't really mind them
'coz it's part of life
it's what makes me stronger
and a little bit wiser than before.

So don't be scared like them,
brace yourself and enjoy the ride
life keeps getting better
but it depends on you to make it work.
I know, 'coz I did.

.Assured. - Liz Lorenzo

Anyway, here's another song. isa ako sa mga kumanta pero song ito ng friend ko.

Make everyday a better day

by Sarah Caballero

per

Make Everyday a Better Day (Animo Benilde!) - Sarah Caballero and Liz Lorenzo

Happy!

2008-07-11T14:29:00.000+08:00

natutuwa ako kaya naman napa-blog ako dito.

Let's celebrate dahil kanina ko lang nalaman na.... tantananana! (sound effects yan!)

Graduating na pala kami next term!

ang saya saya!!!! parang kanina lang nanghihinayang ako sa 3rd term kasi 2 subjects lang tas ngayon. Pwede na daw kunin lahat!

Amazing grace!

parang kanina lang, frosh kami.... tapos ngayon... . hahahaha. WALA NA!

so exciting.

Inuman na!!!
Road trip na!!!

Let's pack our bags and enjoy the ride.

.wakas.

charinggerzee

2008-07-10T16:07:00.001+08:00

bad trip ako pero okay na ako.

yun lang naman. hhahahaha.

next post siguro maglalagay ako kanta. =D

un lang. bow.

What's happening?

2008-05-27T06:51:00.004+08:00

Yesterday I came across a batchmate at the elevator. Casual na casual ang drama and super normal ang day. At first we talked about trivial stuff like, "Kailan ka graduate?" and so on and so fort. Minsan kasi its very refreshing to see familiar faces from St. Paul... kahit papano di mo maaalis yung thrill nung nakaraan...

Anyway, Timmy (the one I was talking to na kabatch ko sa spcp) suddenly blurted out something very shocking and depressing:

"Liz, diba kilala mo si Boom?"

ako naman, "Yeah. Musta na siya?"

"...uhm, nagsuicide."

me (assuming her attempt failed): "so san hospital siya, okay na ba siya?"

Timmy: "Liz, natuluyan."

After that, we reached the ground floor. Sobrang natigilan ako. Paglabas ng Benilde, Timmy and I parted ways. Pero, men! yung sinabi niya... um-e-echo pa sa utak ko. parang ang tagal i-process nung statement. Kahit balibaliktarin mo... yun lang talaga ang meaning nun.

Tinext ko bigla si Noe, since may message pala siya saken...I asked her if yung 'Boom' na nasa utak ko, is yung 'Boom' na kwinento saken... turns out mali ako and yung revelation nung real identity nung kwinento ni Timmy ay mas disturbing.

Turns out that she's my batchmate. Kumbaga sa batch prominent figure siya in terms of Academic stuff because she's like our salutatorian.

Never had the chance to speak to her in high school though. Ang layo siguro ng agwat namin in terms of math aptitude or something. To make the story short, forever siyang star section and ako forever - nakakalat.

Despite the fact that I barely know her... It never crossed my mind that she'll do something like that. I mean, she's the type of person you'll expect great things from. Ganon siya kagaling! Ganon ka exag ung level niya saken.

Oh well, whatever her reasons... mystery na yun. I don't wanna dwell on it much because it's too depressing.

All of us has 1 more year to go before graduating from college. I heard she's on the run for a magna cumlaude in U.P. Sayang lang talaga. She could've helped make our world a better place.

Condolence para sa family and close friends niya.

3 na sa batch namin ang umalis na... what's happening? bat parang jinx?

Lord, guide us.

Killing spree

2008-05-19T23:38:00.002+08:00

I don't really understand why people are killing these days...
Yesterday, I read the newspaper and was devastated by the gravity of the crime committed in Laguna last friday (May 16, 2008). According to the news, the innocent employees were asked to lineup in a row and then gunned down one by one in the head.

The deed was very brutal and insane! I mean, for starters, the employees did everything the robbers asked them to do... the least they could've done was spare their lives... I mean, MOST OF THEM HAVE FAMILIES AND CHILDREN TO SUPPORT!!!!

I'm saddened by this and wish I could do something to help those children they left behind. I most especially want to help the Janitors family... I read in the paper that the Janitor promised her daughter a pair of shoes for graduation and that he'll be giving her the shoes soon... I want to buy her a pair since her father can't fulfill his promise anymore...

The news gave me goosebumps and I really cried when I finished it. I wondered why they died... I mean, did they really deserve to die like that? If not, of all people why them? I mean, there are lots of suicidal people out there who wished to die... why not them since they're giving their lives up so willingly?

Are they feeling guilty right now? Is it because the robbers have families to support? Did they ever wonder that those employees have families to support, too?

for the families of the 10 murdered bank employees who they left behind: I feel for you. My heartfelt condolences to all of you. I really hope they find the criminals soon. God Bless.

Spice Girls The greatest hits cd

2008-05-16T21:32:00.003+08:00

I've been a fan since I was a kid. Hahahahaha. Tawagin nyo na akong baduy pero gusto ko talaga sila nung grade school ako. Kaya naman nung lumabas ung greatest hits CD ng spice girls... bumili ako agad. kahit 455 something ang halaga. Go for the Gold! Pwedeng pwede ko idownload yan... pero, music prod ako and since malamang huli na talaga ung album na yan... binili ko na.

(yuck, hardcore?)

majority nung greatest hits album ay ung mga nakaraan nilang kanta. natutuwa ako dahil it brings a lot of memories talaga. Meron din silang new song... Headlines, maganda yung concept nung song and ung ending ng song:

" Let’s make the headlines, Cause I’m giving it all, I’m giving it all to you."

Ang maganda pa dun sa Greatest hits, merong included na DVD ng music videos. nakakatuwa talaga dahil nung bata ako, naka-glue ang mata ko sa MTV inaabangan ung bago nilang labas na songs kasi super consistent ang mga releases nila.

By far, ang pinaka-gusto kong MTV nila ay ung 'Let love lead the way' - elements ung theme niya and nagmatch sa different personality nila. Although di na sila complete nung time na yun,

trip ko din ung 'too much' -- although sablay ang lyrics niya : (love is blind, as far as the eye can see... = ano daw?!?!) in terms of nung MTV ika nga ng kapatid ko, timeless daw.

Favorite ko din ung '2 become 1' despite na may pagka- NC-17 yung rating nya in terms of lyrics, okay ung MTV para kasing futuristic dahil parang finorward na time ung theme kaya ung mga car lights puro blurry.

Pinaka-malabong MTV naman ay ung 'Viva Forever' - although un naman ang pinaka-favorite kong song nila... ewan ko ba kung ano ibig sabihin nung rubics tas ung tinapon dun sa parang machine. NAWINDANG AKO.

hindi ko alam kung positive ba un o talagang sinadyang may pagka-dark... well, kumbaga sa story hanging kasi sya. ayon naman sa wikipedia, ung explanation nun ay ung ending... nung pagkalabas nung 4 na fairies instead of 5. ung bata nawalan ng friend so as the fairies, pero ung memories andun pa din forever.

o cya, alis na ako... shinare ko lang. Charing!

(limited edition)

Sad...

2008-05-01T19:24:00.000+08:00

Mika

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love [repeat]

I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

.slightly rested.

2008-04-25T14:55:00.007+08:00

.On the way back.

.full moon.
(joan, elroy, likod ni liz)

Just got back from Batangas... actually delayed post na ito, I got back nung wednesday pa... I didn't post an entry kasi I was so tired, not to mention I went to school pa nung thursday so dito nalang.

Super refreshing nung trip. Although mas madaming nakakainis na moment. (hassle ka, dude! sa totoo lang)

[[OFF TOPIC]] anyway... just found this benildean survey... eh dahil super boring dito dahil umuulan tas ako lang ang tao sa house, magsusunog lang ako ng oras. sasagutan ko un sa dulo ng post.

tas after this survey I'll watch La Corda d'Oro for the second time. (Japanese Anime about Music students... medyo can relate kaso conservatory ang setting. =p woeh.)

may ganon pa eh... so for now, konting pictures muna. [[end]]

nasabi na nung picture

.the drinks.

.bonfire.
(elroy.mario.charles.me)

.bonfire2.
(me.lawrence.dante.caloi)

.sarah and liz.

.tired liz.

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Part One

1. ID number
10551867 (yes! graduating na, men!)

2. 1st / 2nd / 3rd choice
1ST- AB - Music Production
2ND- AB - Multimedia Arts
3RD- AB - Consular and Diplomatic Affairs

3. Course
AB - Music Production

4. Did you attend the Frosh Orientation Program?
No. Yung Music Production Orientation lang.

5. Did you attend the Frosh Night?
Yes.

6. Have you ever been caught by the D.O.?
Yes.

7. Who's your academic adviser?
nung frosh: sir jed, tas now sir Arnel?

8. Favorite classroom?
wala

9. Do you know your GPA?
no. i don't really care

10. Is CSB your first choice?
No.

Part Two

[x] You know that HRM and HRIM are two different courses.
[x] Brought / wore a jacket on a daily basis.
[x] Had a Korean classmate.
[ ] Signed up for many orgs during the Star Week
[ ] Actually became part of an org.
[x] You have met 'Jenny'.
[ ] You hang out at the cubes.
[ ] You hang out at Plaza V.
[x] You have had Shark's Fin with rice more than once a week.
[x] You have been to SDA and AKIC.
[ ] Went on LOA.
[x] Dropped / failed a subject. (ordev. f*cker!)
[ ] Skipped BIBSTUD at least once.
[ ] The turnstile is the place to 'know people'.
[x] Waited for someone / something at the 'airport'.
[x] You've met your academic adviser.
[x] Watched movies at the LRC.
[ ] Ate Yakisoba inside the classroom.
[x] Used the WiFi on campus.
[x] Went to the CL / i-Nook to cram assignments.
[x] Attended / watched an event in the theater for ORDEV.
[x] Secured a Blue Form.
[x] Missed a course card distribution day.
[x] Missed a course card distribution day because you were on vacation already.
[x] Went through piles and piles of course card in the SIU.
[ ] Participated in the speech choir for ORALCOM.
[ ] Went to MoA in between classes.
[x] Tried to get out of the building before the clock hit 6 PM and failed.
[x] Tried to get out of the building before the clock hit 6 PM and succeeded.
[ ] Landed on the dean's list.
[ ] Landed on the dean's list for three consecutive terms.
[ ] Parked at the 'beach'.
[ ] Used the EAF to get in because you forgot your ID.
[X] Had a freaky prof.
[x] Became friends with a prof.
[x] Became friends with a guard / D.O. / ACTC person / LRC person. (sda building)
[x] Had a 6-9 class.
[x] Went to the ACTC to renew your account / password.
[x] Tried to access Friendster in the CL / i-Nook and got blocked by Websense.
[x] Secured handouts at the 2nd / 3rd floor Duerr Hall.
[ ] Arrived late for a 7 AM class. (sabay kami ni chasy so di ako late)
[ ] Had an online exam through the Moodle.

(wakas..)

ja ne..

Idyllic

2008-04-21T02:13:00.003+08:00

I'm so ready for you~~~~ haha. Can't wait for Lipa...

kahit na ba mamaya na un. hehehe.

What if kaya pag naging mayaman ako, sa beach nalang ako tumira? pag nasa ganyan ka siguro (look at the pic on top) parang ang sarap na sigurong matuluyan... (uy, morbid)

Ang ganda kasi eh... it looks idyllic.

anyway, my brother went to visayas yesterday... I'm so bitter. hahaha. I want to go to boracay... woeh. Lumandi ba daw...

I guess dahil sa super sagad na school year... ayoko na muna ng kahit anong paperwork or isipin muna ang benilde... utang na loob.

so... to make time go faster... survey muna

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Survey taken from Jikki (friendster)

if you're being extremely quiet what does it mean?
I want to die right then and there or I don't want the people around me.

if someone hit you, what would you do?
I'll hit the person back... ano ako punching bag?

do you still have feelings for your ex?
I have plenty of feelings... but I have no ex. hahaha.

last time you laughed?
as in real hard? 2 days ago.

has anyone told you they missed you lately?
yes. natapos na ata ung sensitive mode eh. Mushy mode lahat for some lame reason.

are you wearing any clothes that don't belong to you?
yes.

have you ever received sexy pics from someone?
sa spam email ko ata. not sure, I don't open it.

do you regret anything from your past
sometimes...

if you could seek revenge on someone would you?
I don't know... I never hated someone that much yet...

how do you react when people cry around you?
if it's for some lame reason. naiirita ako. If sincere tears... panicky.

do you bump into someones arm if you want to hold their hand?
ay... may ganon?! pathetic nun.

last argument?
uh, yesterday.

do you have a crush?
right now? wala eh. napakaboring ng buhay ko.

do you know how to belly dance?
no. pero sana marunong ako, nakakapayat un, hahaha

what are you listening to?
4'33 ni John Cage

last drink?
2 hours ago. water

last nap?
uhm, nung 2pm

do you own a planner?
yes. Binigyan ako ni Chasy nung starbucks planner

favorite month/s?
december and july

would your parents be mad if you got someone pregnant?
no. because I can't do that. I have to be a guy to do that.

would they be mad if you were gay/lesbian?
No. They're open sa ganon.

what are you doing last saturday?
I can't remember

sweetest thing anyone has ever done for you?
someone gave me this cd for my birthday... basta walang makakatalo nun.

kiss on the first date?
i don't know

who did you hang out with today?
no one. Walang tao sa house

favorite color/s?
blue and pink

excited for anything?
yes. LIPAAAAA

ever had sex with two different people in one day?
nope

last time you were confused?
nung finals

last time you smiled?
kanina

if you could cuddle with anyone right now who would you pick?
santa claus.

rent a movie or go to movies?
buy the movie

been to mexico?
nope.

happy with life?
chill lang.,

I LOVED YESTERDAY - YUI's 3rd Album!!!

2008-04-19T00:27:00.003+08:00

I Loved Yesterday I Loved Yesterday
Standard Edition Limited Edition

I love it! It's so nice... Thank God, for all the Berlitz session... and all the Nihongo lessons...

Here's a playlist of the album.

(Ewan ko lang if trip nyo Jpop.)

.yearbook. extremist. prejudice. life.

2008-04-18T21:33:00.002+08:00

just finished paying for my yearbook. Grabe, yearbook na agad.

well, today's post is not about the yearbook actually... Today's post is about my thoughts on the world and how everything seem to bug me.

I realized something important... something that really gets on my nerve.

I realized that some people love to educate or lecture people about what is right and wrong... but in the end... they don't actually practice what they preach.

they come out strong and try to win you over even if you repeatedly ask them to stop.

But then, why can't they understand that not everyone agree with anyone. That's just human nature.

Although I try my best not to feel this way, sometimes, my patience level just couldn't take it anymore. I hate it when people think they're right all the time.

it's just plain wrong, you know? You can't just show up and try to convert everyone to believe what you believe in or to make people say you're right or something...

My greatest enemy has done it again. Closemindedness kills you know? It kills the heart, the mind and the conscience. Try to beat it... make yourself open your eyes or whatever.

oh well, I'll just continue this discussion maybe next time... My thoughts are all mixed up right now.

Or maybe I'm just confused....

Whatchathink!?

Finally

2008-04-17T02:59:00.003+08:00

Today is the last day of Finals...

So basically, lahat ng test ko, today gaganapin. (madalas kasi manira ng sched ang benilde)

Hassle siya in a way pero at least after my 6PM test, pwede ko na talaga yakapin ang summer.

Extreme yung moment kasi this will be my last summer as a college student. (yuck, whatever... haha.)

can't wait for Monday... Sabik na sabik na ako umalis. We've been planning for this vacation months ago pa... and now that it's finally coming... Shucks, kinikilig na ako. hahahaha. I can hardly wait.

I'll be posting a lot of pictures from that trip siguro in my multiply account. Medyo hassle kung dito ko pa i-upload, medyo mas madali doon eh.

Anyway, as you can see... I'm back! haha. Medyo dead blog na toh pero since feeling ko ako nalang ata ang nagbabasa nito... I feel that it's safe to write here again... and medyo nagsawa na din ako magblog noon so... ayun, no updates from me...

the last time I wrote here (I mean, yung serious and consistent posts) was like January pa.

what can I say... my life wasn't that interesting ... wala lang. NR lang. steady.

now? well... I guess outlet ulit toh... I guess I need an outlet again for a lot of reasons...

Siguro, isa na dun ung depression. I'm depressed for no reason at all. (o dba? talk about baliw.)

also, my patience level stretched a lot these past months. Why? kasi I need to adjust... kasi naman noh... for some weird reason, everyone's just too damn sensitive.. maybe factor din ung change of weather kaya ganon? buti sana kung isang tao lang eh pero... ang dami nila eh. so weird! feeling ko nga ako lang talaga ung walang pakialam eh.

oh! not to mention, teachers ko din naging tigre after midterms. ang weird talaga... everybody needs to cool down. seryoso.

another thing din ung growing coldness ng parents ko sa isa't isa... My God! It never ends... hiwalay, bati, hiwalay, bati... I mean, come on!! Make up your minds!!! kung hindi talaga wag nalang!

dumagdag din c bro... ngayon pa pinili maging rebelde. haller! been there, done that. (papunta ka palang, pabalik na ako. nge!) not to mention nawala pa ung PDA nya. ano ba yan!!!!

anyway, in short... andaming nangyayari lately kaya it's time again to let the words flow. ulol. hahaha. nagpapaka-profound pa eh.

anyway... yun lang naman. ja ne!

.semaj.eussi.

2008-04-14T01:42:00.003+08:00

stop blaming others about your own mistake.

i hate you when you're being so self-centered and out of place.

you say stuff just to piss me off and you act nice when all the world's watching.

You know, I really feel betrayed by you.

I protected you, covered for you and even lied for you and still your blaming me for every wrong turn you make.

you're so immature... you're also selfish...

and despite that... I can't really hate you.
I'm not even allowed to hate you.

oh well... life is unfair. but that's how the world goes.

---------------------------------------------------------
t'nod eb ekil siht,.. rouy llits ym ylimaf... t'nod yas ffuts ouy t'nod naem... armak si erehwyreve.

i llits: oyuretihsia.

tasukete

2008-04-02T23:20:00.002+08:00

I'm really tired. . .

I want to die na.

can't deal with myself right now.

leave me alone.

.Taning.

2008-01-16T17:06:00.000+08:00

hindi nakakatuwa.

hassle.

.Taning.

2008-01-16T17:03:00.000+08:00

hindi nakakatuwa.

hassle.

tulong naman.

2008-01-07T17:59:00.000+08:00

guys, medyo may plague computer ko... tulungan niyo kong tangalin ung hinayupak na funny ust scandal.avi

tinanggal niya na ang task manager ko, regedit, at sinasara niya ng biglaan ang dialogue box... and dinisable niya ang AVG ko. LUPETTTT.

KAHIT MANUAL ang pagtanggal.... HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!

suggest.naman.kayo.

Pasko, Paksiw, Pasko

2007-12-27T20:14:00.000+08:00

Masaya ang pasko dahil eto ang bumulaga. IPOD CLASSIC. Ang baet ng magulang ko... di ko maexplain ung ligaya. hahahaha. (ay, gumaganon?)

basta... astig. Kahit na ba wala pa ung gitara ko... OKAY LANG.

mailalagay ko na lahat ng tunog ng mundo. hahahaha. woeh.

eto nga pala ung mga pics dun sa Christmas party dun sa may family kubo namin. di ko na pinost dun sa album. gusto ko pahirapan sarili ko ng konti. ksssst.

O siya... Belated Merry Christmas sa lahat... yun lang naman gusto ko sabihin. Happy new year na din.

Sa uulitin.

ang magulong mundo

2007-11-29T12:45:00.000+08:00

badtrip dahil gusto ko dumaan ng makati...

bakit ba laging may umeeksena sa makati? alam ba nila na yun ang daan ko patungong kolehiyo araw-araw? malamang hindi.

hindi naman nila iniisip ang iba eh... di nila naisip kung may mapeperwisyo sila. bakit? Dahil sarili nila ang iniisip nila taliwas sa ibinubugang propaganda o kung ano-anong bisyon ang meron sila.

okay... hindi ako usually nanonood o nagbabasa ng news (puro showbiz, komiks, ticket rates at movies ang binabasa at pinapanood ko) kaya wala akong alam sa ka-eklatan na yan. Imaginine niyo lang ang hassle nung napagtanto ko ang kaguluhan sa makati at naburyong ang buong diwa ko dahil trapik... gusto ko na talaga kumasa ng baril, magsindi ng old school na dynamita, ilabas ang armalite, magbuo ng kampo at mang-gera. (ganon ka-extreme)

Usually, NR lang ako sa mga ganitong usapan... kaso, nanood ako ng legally blonde 2 kahapon... Ang laging bukang bibig ni Elle Woods: "SPEAK UP". Kaya eto ako ngayon... dadaldal lang ako.

okay, punta tayo sa point ko...

di ko lubos maintindihan kung ano ang gustong mangyari ng mga nasa 5-star hotel... ang gusto daw nila ay magkaroon ng stability ang economy ng bansa, magkaroon ng peace... at ipalandakan sa mundo na 'not guilty'.

but then... here they go again... pinanindigan ang 'not guilty'. (ang saya saya, noh?)

ang galing galing, noh?

sa lahat ng ayoko ay ang mga taong may kakaibang vision sa mission. (wow, ordev?) sa nakikini-kinita ko, taliwas ang objectives ng mga gags sa ginagawa nila.

gusto ko tuloy sumigaw ng "Ang mamatay ng dahil sayo!"

kahit paalisin niyo yan... mas gaganda ba kung ang nanggugulo ang mamumuno?

after effects ng ginagawa nila ay taliwas sa objectives nila... aalis ang foreign investors, tataas uli ang dolyar... at malamang walang peace... dahil sila ang cause ng pagpatay ng peace.

ang galing!

"keep up the good work, guys"

patayin niyo pa ang bansa. yun ung hidden objective niyo, diba?

/ba-sude-/cumpleazos/verjaardag/compleanno/

2007-11-29T12:03:00.000+08:00

at nagbalik muli. haaay.

di ako mapalagay...

malapit na... sabado na...

ayoko pa pero di maiiwasan.

kailangan ko na talaga maging mature at maging girly. (ay gumaganon!)

syempre sa espesyal na araw na iyon, kinakailangang magbagong buhay dahil eto na ito...
THIS IS IT.

mararating ko na ang numero na nasa jersey ko nung high school. antanda ko na... Lintek.

anyway... guys, next week nalang ang (haha). bilihin ko muna gitara ko. (hihihi.yey.) saka tayo magusapang.... youknowwhat. joke. hihihihi. saka tayo magpakasaya.

word of mouth ang invitation. low budget eh. sagot ko ang at .

Sagot niyo ang . hahahahaha.

ocya. ikakalat ko sa hangin ang detalye. apir!

later.

Inspired... =)

2007-09-29T20:59:00.000+08:00

Kilala niyo ba si Diane Warren?

Grabe... ngayon ko lang nadiscover how brilliant she is in terms of songwriting. BOW AKO! She's really, really GOOD.

Ito yung gusto ko maging... i mean, sikat ang songs niya... pero she's not really IN THE SPOTLIGHT. She's just the brain behind the beautiful tunes in the radio... naiinspire ako sobra... shucks... nangangati na tuloy ang kamay kong gumawa ng songs... sobra kasing versatile. MUSICIAN TALAGA.

I guess you've heard some of the songs she did in the past... pero I'm guessing, di niyo lang alam na siya pala ang gumawa nung song...

here are some of her most famous works:

Exceptional - JOJO
For you I will - MONICA (for the film Space Jam)
Because you love me - CELINE DION (for the film Up Close and Personal)
Can't Fight the Moonlight - LEANNE RIMES (for the film Cayote Ugly)
Can't take that away (Mariah's theme) - MARIAH CAREY (co-written by Mariah C.)
Don't need you to (tell me I'm pretty) - SAMANTHA MUMBA ( for the movie Legally blonde)
Give a little love - ZIGGY MARLEY
Have you ever - BRANDY
How do I live - TRISHA YEARWOOD (for the movie CON AIR)
I belong to me - JESSICA SIMPSON
I Decide - LINDSAY LOHAN (for the movie Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement)
I Don't wanna miss a thing - AEROSMITH (for the movie Armaggedon)
I Don't want to be your friend - NINA (in fairness, may permission) previously sung by Cyndi Lauper.
I love you, Goodbye - NINA (revived in Nina LIVE!) originally sung by Celine Dion
I Promise - STACIE ORRICO
I Turn to you - CHRISTINA AGUILERA
I'll never get over you (Getting over me) - originally sung by Expose - revived by Jasmine Trias
Note to God - JOJO
One this world - HAYLIE DUFF (for the movie A cinderella story)
Spanish Guitar - TONI BRAXTON
Tell me where it hurts - revived by MYMP (originally sung byMilli Vanilli)
The Saddest Song I've ever heard - FOR REAL
There You'll Be - FAITH HILL (Pearl Harbor)
Unbreak my heart - TONI BRAXTON
When I see you smile - BAD ENGLISH

actually she made quite a lot of songs... naloka ako dahil majority nun... magkakaiba ng genre... guys... nakakatuwa talaga. =) meron siyang page sa wikipedia... you can check more info about her there.

Walalang... just wanted to share... BOW AKO.

burning time...

2007-09-19T22:40:00.000+08:00

life is a musical.

kinopya ko lang. at ginawa. epekto ng adorche siguro... bow.

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!

1. How are you feeling today?
-> Middle - Jasmine Leong

2.Will you get far in life?
-> Goodbye to you - michelle branch (uh... parang bad sign ito ah.)

3. How do your friends see you?
-> Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne (uh,,.. bat puro bad? haha. loko ito ah.)

4.Will you get married?
-> Wag na wag mong sasabihin - kitchie Nadal (so... parang hindi ba ito!?)

5. What is your best friend's theme song?
-> Break Away - Kelly Clarkson (pwede... kailangan niya ito.)

6. What is the story of your life?
-> Perfect - simple plan (haha. natawa naman ako... perfect ba!? anlayo!)

7. What was high school like?
-> Umaaraw, Umuulan - Rivermaya (hehe. pwede, pwede.)

8.How can you get ahead in life?
-> Linger - Cranberries (hmm.. does this make sense? so kailangan kong tumagal?)

9. What is the best thing about your friends?
-> My favorite Game - the cardigans (ayos ah! hehehe.)

10. What is today going to be like?
-> This is my time - Raven (haha. sana! kung pwede lang...)

11.What is in store for the weekend?
-> Wake up - Mojofly (awakening!? haha. labo)

12. What song describes you?
-> aircon - mayonnaise (teka... hmm... para akong pinagtulungan nung question chaka nung player... ganito ba ako? pwede noh... sad naman. malamig.)

13.To describe your grandparents?
-> All you wanted - Michelle branch (just what i had in mind! hehehe. ayos ah.)

14. How is your life going?
-> irreplaceable - Beyonce (ah talaga?? haha)

15. What song will they play at your funeral?
-> Goodbye days - Yui (japanese song... ang labo... parang sinadya. haha)

16. How does the world see you?
-> Girlfriend - Avril (NANAMAN!?!? bat ganon?!)

17. Will you have a happy life?
-> Half life - Duncan sheik (YUN LANG.)

18. What do your friends really think of you?
-> Perfect Day - hoku (teka... positive ba ito?)

19.Do people secretly lust after you?
-> No one - Aly and A.J. (hahahaha. talagang sinagot! cool!)

20. How can I make myself happy?
-> Tabing ilog - Barbie's Cradle (So pano nga?)

21. What should you do with your life?
-> Ride of your life - John Gregory (maganda ung song para sa question. hehe)

22. Will you ever have children?
-> Firewoman - Hungry Young poets (so... parang... hindi?)

23. How do you picture yourself 5 years from now?
-> Just a Girl - No doubt (haha. pwede!)

24. What is best to describe your special someone?
-> Mama - spice girls (patay tayo dyan! hahaha. buti nlng walang special ngayon)

25. What is in store for you in this coming month?
-> Built this way - Samantha Ronson (un lang.... "coz every man that i know makes me feel like I'm to blame when it's over... you and your selfish ways.." so ibig sabihin.. may sisihan? hahaha. whatever.)

26. What would your life be 10 years from now?
-> I decide - Lindsay Lohan (gusto ko ung sagot dito.)

.pagkauwi.

2007-09-06T21:10:00.000+08:00

depressed.

pero ayos lang. di naman halata...

plastic kasi eh. pero ayos lang. totoo nga ang sinasabi na remedy ng mga taong may problema: uminom ng BADTRIP.

4 NA GANON... solve na.

hndi nga happy pero naibsan ang pagka-badtrip...

SARAH, ayusin mo tagaytay... i need to breakaway.

you know why...

=c

binabawi ko na ung past entry ko... pagdating sa usapang pamilya.. GINAWA ANG MUNDO PARA IKAW ANG MAG-ADJUST,

kahit na ba ang simpleng SORRY ay hindi uubra.

oh well... no choice.

LECHE.

music drafts... "the making of the music"

2007-09-03T02:07:00.000+08:00

sabi nila... ang pinaka maganda daw usually na creation ay ung pinaka unang draft. kaya eto... for the first time... paparinig ko sa inyo ung mga imbento kong kanta nung fourth year ako, nung 1st year college ako... at nung songwriting class ko...

ETO AY UNG DEMO VERSION o kung tawagin ng iba ay drafts... gusto ko lang i-share dahil dito niyo makikita ang aking pag-evolve. hahahaha. woeh. =p

actually, nakakatawang pakinggan ung mga drafts dahil andito ung mga attempts... so malamang may mga maling notes dito... or piyok/nginig/off tune and all... so ayun...

demo number 1: 4th year (Demo)

eto... ginawa ko nung fourth year... ginawa ko ito ng wala wala lng... no paper and ink... kung ano ang lumabas sa utak at bibig... yun na yun... actually, di ko masyadong pinagisipan ito... at ung chords... ano veh... parang naglalaro lang sa apat na chords... oh well... pagpasensyahan niyo na.

by the way... old school recording ito... cassette. takte. lumevel diba? hahahaha. di ko nga alam kung pano ko nalipat sa computer to eh. weird. nakita ko nlng sya sa mga luma kong files. hehehe. pagpasensyahan ang hiss and all.

demo number 2: 520 (demo)

eto ang mahiwagang salamat song... same theme din nung 4th year song... kaso ito, ginawa ko para pumasang bmat2x... hanep naman sa bonus points diba? so ayun... without even thinking.... ginawa ko ito... di ko nga alam pinagsasabi ko dito eh...

pero PUMASA AKO. so kahit ewan ko ba ung lyrics.. pwede na! ahahahaha.

demo number 3: Look what you've done

ang pinaka-unang collaboration namin ni sarah sa pagbuo ng kanta... hehehe. actuallly 4 kaming gumawa: me, sarah, and bhoj (get well soon) -- ang gumawa ng music.. tas ung lyrics... teacher namin sa bmat2x. sir calma ba un? may memory gap ako... so pasensya nlng kung mali...

anyway, pwede pwedehan na actually ung kanta... pero feeling ko di bagay lyrics... dapat upbeat. di kasi makuha ung point. =p mas okay siguro kung iba lyrics... (no offense sa teacher namin)

demo number 4: Kahapon version 2 (Demo)

Ang kantang ito ay maraming revisions na pinagdaanan... eto kumbaga ung pinaka-demo niya sa lahat. Yung final version nasa profile ko... sa version na ito, mas madaming voicing... mas maganda ang ending... (feeling ko lang ah) iilan lang ang nakarinig nito... at iilan lang din ang may kopya nito: the lucky (nga ba?) few na may copy ay sina: sarah/cha (ata?), kapatid ko, at ung mma na gumawa nung video.

TAPUSIN NIYO, HA? ung ending at ung voicing ung pinaka-favorite ko dito... eto din ung version na mas trip ni Sarah pero ayaw ni chasy. hehehe.

demo number 5: Ikaw magpakailanman (original version)

ito yung common text namin... isang lyrics, kanya-kanyang take... in my opinion, pinaka magandang version ay ung kay sarah... naks! ang version kasi niya r & b... ung version niya maririnig nyo dito: http://sarahcaballero.imeem.com/music/bou5G78I/sarah_c_ikaw_magpakailanman/

eto naman ung akin... ung band version maririnig nyo sa links ko, eto ung pinaka original... nakakapikon lang dahil nacompare sa mymp at kay Yeng .... (*bang* suicide)

demo number 6: ikaw magpakailanman version 2

eto sana ang gagawin ko... kaso ang requirement, bawal daw lumagpas sa 4 minutes... sa demo na ito... wala pang 1 minute toh... pero mas bagay sana kaso dragging at malamang aabot ng 6 minutes kung tinuloy ko ang version na ito... nga pala... may topak ang pagkarecord... isang tenga lang ung boses. naka-pan. chka bagong gising ako nagrecord... galing akong dorm tas record agad... deadline na kasi.

demo number 7: Piano version (nung nasa taas)

maraming nanghinayang sa tono... so gumawa ako ng konting revisions dun sa music... and ito ang lumabas... maganda ganda na... pwedeng pang-ballad. actually bebenta nga eh kung kinalat... Piano lang ito... ung susunod ung REVISED. nilagyan ng ibang lyrics... un na yung nilapatan ni sarah ng liriko. =)

demo number 8: That's not the way it feels (ito na ng new lyrics/same tono)

okay... sobrang kadiri boses ko dito.. si sarah kasi talaga dapat kakanta nito kaya ko tinaasan. malas ko lang dahil ako ung nagdemo at nahirapan ako. putol na version ito dahil hindi pa siya tapos... (ung kanta) kaya sarah... GOOD LUCK. ang taas talaga. nga pala, pa isa-isang note lang ang ginawa ko... hindi ako tulad ni alicia keys na kayang pagsabayin, okay?!

demo number 9: Kaya mo yan (demo)

wala itong drums... purely guitar and vocals lang ito. in fairness mas maganda ang ending pakinggan kung ito ung version na soundtrip niyo.

demo number 10: Ibang iba

kung crush niyo c jeff... eto na ang chance niyong pakinggan ang mahiwaga niyang boses. Eto ung demo namin for that song... c jeff ang kumanta.

Ang pagkagawa ng kanta na ito ay astig dahil nasa labas lang kami ng lumang music room noong biglang tumugtog c jeff... kinantahan ko --- sumakto naman, nung di ko na madugtungan... sinalo ni shushai at ta-dah! nabuo ang ibang iba. ito... by far, ang pinaka-favorite ko sa ginawa namin... talagang team effort. papatok ito... promise. (feeling pala eh.)

demo number 11: Untitled (Japanese inspired)

nanood ako ng sinking of Japan at na-bitter-an ako sa ganda nung kanta nila... anyway, since nag-aaral ako ng nihongo ngayon, pag magaling nako... lalapatan ko ito ng hapon na lyrics at pakakantahin ko kay... uhmm... Utada hikaru? joke lang... kung kanino man. hahahaha. DREAM ON.... anyway, piano lang ito... sabi ng mga tao okay daw ito sa mga rpg games... pero malay... bahala na. =) medyo joke, joke na ung dulo... 1 shot lang na recording ito... gamit ang cellphone ko. =p

un lang naman. whatchathink? =p hahahaha. *apir!*

The BUS. (literal)

2007-09-02T12:13:00.000+08:00

guys... lumevel kami ni chasy sa pagcommute.. hehehe. nag-bus kami pauwi, hehehe. kaya as a remembrance, eto ang ebidensya:

nakakatuwa lang. hehehehe. hindi talaga ako nag-b-bus kasi natatakot ako... pero dahil super jampack nung mrt nung araw na un... trip trip lang... nagbus kami. hehehe. share ko din ung iba pang stolen shots. nakakatuwa lang talaga. pasensya sa kuha... di ako photographer. =p
un lang naman.
wakas.

Nursing vs Music Prod??

2007-08-26T20:28:00.000+08:00

12:24 am ngayon... pangkaraniwang araw, pangkaraniwang oras, pangkaraniwang pagmumuni-muni.

Maraming nagtatanong saken kung bakit sa lahat ng pwedeng maging propesyon... bakit daw ba pagiging musikero ang pinili ko?

Wala naman daw kasing pera dun. Wala din daw kwenta kasi pwedeng sideline lang yun. Ano ba daw ang magiging trabaho ko pagka-graduate? Bakit hindi nalang daw nursing? Or I.T.? Or Multimedia arts?

May iba pang nakangusong nagsasabi na pa-sarcastic na: "Ano ka na pagkagraduate? Artista? Singer-Singer-an? Entertainer sa Japan, Thailand o Hong Kong? Ano? Videoke singer? Anong future mo dun?" (Sasabayan pa ng malakas na tawa na tila nakakabasag pinggan dahil sa taas ng frequency)

Siyempre, isa lang naman sagot ko sa mga makukulit na taong nagtatanong saken:

"*&*%^$@#$! Eh ano naman bang pakialam mo, ha?"

Dahil gago ako sumagot. Tumatahimik naman sila... (Yung iba, siyempre dahil akala di ako mambabara... nagbackstab na) Pero andun pa din yung tingin na kala mo ang sinasabi ng mga mata ay: 'bahala na nga yan, kala mo naman may maipagmamalaki. tsss. Music daw? whatever.'

At dahil gago pa din ako, hindi ko hahayaang minamaliit ako sa pamamagitan ng mata... So dahil ang patience level ko ay lagpas na sa 700mb, 80 mins, 52xSpeed (woeh. feeling cd-r pala eh) Siyempre... pag-prinovoke.. titirahin mo din, diba?

Simple lang ang sinabi ko... pero di na siya naka-sagot. Sabi tuloy ng tatay ko, sundan ko na daw ang yapak niyang maging lawyer dahil may future ako. (YIKES!) Pero anyway, eto lang naman ang sinabi ko:

"Ano bang problema mo't ganyan ka, ha? Bakit? OO nga't mayaman ka, masaya ka naman ba, ha? Masaya ka ba sa paulit-ulit na takbo ng trabaho mo at ng buhay mo?"

At dun nila ako iirapan mula ulo hanggang paa, tataasan ng kilay na kala mo wala ng bukas. Pero bakas sa mukha nila na totoo ang sinabi ko. May pera nga sila pero nag-iisa sila. Magara ang kagamitan nila pero di sila kuntento. Mayaman nga pero nasasaktan sila sa simpleng rason na sana nagagawa nila yung gusto nila.

Pinili ko ang musika kahit alam kong may posibilidad na hindi ako kumita. Hindi naman yaman ang basehan ko noong pinili ko ang kurso ko... binase ko siya ayon sa nararamdaman ko. Aanhin ko ang pera kung masaya naman ako? Kung yumaman edi swerte, kung hindi... edi try again.

So what kung music lang?

Ang nurse, pag nagpapagaling ng tao isa isa lang niya pwedeng asikasuhin. Kung titignan siya in a mathematical context ang ratio ng nurse ay 1:1 = isang nurse sa isang pasyente... pwede siya mag-multitasking pero hindi niya mabibigyan ng 100 % na serbisyo ang pasyente niya kung dalawa agad ang inaasikaso niya.

Ang musika, nakakapagpagaling din... pero hindi pisikal.

May kapangyarihan ang musikang magpaiyak, magpakilig, magpatawa at magbigay ng pag-asa.

kaya din nito pag-isahin ang isang bansang naghihirap.
kaya din nito maghikayat ng libo libong tao na magbalik loob sa Diyos.

hindi lang basta basta ang musika. HINDI ITO LARO.
HINDI ITO 'HOBBY-HOBBY' LANG.

kung 'hobby-hobby' lang ang tingin ng iba sa musika, malamang hindi pa nila lubos na naiintindihan ang responsibilidad na kasama nito.

anyway, ang konklusyon ko lang naman dito ay ito... naiintindihan ko kung bakit sila ganon... at di ko din sila masisisi... actually, dapat nga di ko na sinagot ung mga yun pero gago kasi eh...

pero anyway, may kutob akong kaya ganon ang naging reaskyon nila ay dahil hindi ako nagpadikta sa kagustuhan ng magulang ko pagdating sa pagpili ng kurso...

kung pinili ko sila mommy eto ako ngayon:
Ateneo = political science
UST = Accounting
De La Salle = Legal Management
UP = Journalism
UA&P = Pol Eco ba yun? di ko matandaan.

(halos Pre-law lahat.. tssss.)

nung pinapili nako: eto ang naging desisyon ko at wala akong pakialam sa opinyon ng iba:

Ateneo = political science (dahil DUH! alam kong di ako papasa dun)
UST = Advertising
De La Salle = International Studies Major in Japanese studies (for obvious reasons)
UP = di ako kumuha dahil stressing
UA &P = di ko trip ung courses... masyadong seryoso so di ako nagtake din.
CSB = Music Production (take note... wala yun sa mga choices nila for me)

tignan mo naman ang bagsak ko: Music Production... pero happy naman ako.

Naiintindihan ko ang pagiging bitter nila... pero naman, kung di sila masaya... wag sila mang-insulto ng kurso ng iba... dahil ba masaya ung taong kumukuha nun ngayon.

For now, iintindihin ko sila....

pero tulad nga ng sabi ko kay blind item 1 sa past entries ko:

hindi ginawa ang mundo para intindihin ka. ikaw ang mag-adjust.

over and out. bow.

.tagged.

2007-08-20T17:57:00.000+08:00

okay... I'm planning yet again to change my blog. abnoy ako eh. Pero plano palang ito so... pwede din na hindi.

grabe, parang antagal na nung last entry ko... july pa! I've been busy lately kasi... I'm studying nihongo as of this moment kaya ayun... no new entries.

in fairness naman, I'm improving well. ahaha. memorized ko na ang hiragana and katakana BY HEART.

I'm learning the grammar as of now before I start mastering kanji. Actually, the Japanese language is somewhat stressing to learn kaya ang sakit ng ulo ko na. Shucks talaga, kung hindi lang ako mag-aaral dun after college, i-aabandon ko na ang pag-aaral ko ng Nihongo.

anyway, the reason of this post is to update most of you about what I've been up to lately... at the same time din, well... tinag ako ni dianne. I know i have the choice not to do it pero just for the sake of it... here goes:

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i'm tagged [by diane claveria]!!!

in the 8 facts about yourself, you share 8 things that your readers don't know about you. then at the end, you tag 8 other bloggers to keep the fun going.

- each blogger must post these rules first
- each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves
- bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their 8 things and post these rules
- at the end of your blog, you need to choose 8 people to get tagged and list their names
- don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog

EIGHT THINGS THAT ARE UNKNOWN ABOUT LIZ LORENZO:

1. A lot of people think i hate books... pero believe me, I'm quite the opposite. Super wide reader ako. I can finish thick volumes in a day or two. talent ata yun. The reason I get good grades (nga ba?!) is because of reading... umaasa ako sa STOCK KNOWLEDGE gawa ng pagbabasa.

2. I have a weak heart. Heart palpitation chuva. Although hindi naman siya extreme... ang meron ko is irregular heart palpitation. too stressing to explain pero if ur interested look it up. andami sa internet.

3. i write screenplays. though i don't have the slightest idea kung ano dapat ang format nun... andami kong synopsis na pag na improve... i have a feeling na papatok un. Especially sa mga taong mahilig sa Renzoku format / type of stories.

4. I want to be a writer.... or a director... and pinaka extreme sa lahat : archeologist chka astronaut. Pero look at me now... sa music ang bagsak ko. although baka mag-doctor ako or lawyer pag tinopak ako. any course is a pre-law/pre-med course daw... kaya let's see.

5. i don't know if alam niyo ito... pero I'm planning to study in Japan after college.

6. I have a feeling I'll never come back... may balak na mag migrate ang pamilya ko. so baka ako din. fly na.

7. gusto ko magpatayo ng eskwelahan. music school siya... and ung mga students REQUIRED mag-MASTER ng isang instrument. My dad loved the idea kaya sana magkatotoo. Hindi gitara lang ang instrument... Mastery sa orchestral instruments ang target ko... strings, woodwind, brasses... mga timpani and the likes... it's about time na tumalino ang pinoy.

8. i am lonely. hehe. (hirit pa eh.)

8 PEOPLE I'LL TAG:
- sarah caballero
- chasy sumague
- ross panopio
- jeff labongray
- richelle dionisio
- maku
- shoti - james
- achi - france

you have the liberty not to pass it on. =) hahahahaha.

well, if you're bored anyways... go ahead.

ja! (hirit pa eh)

- リーズ
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にほんごをすこししっています〪

.the late update.

2007-07-22T23:39:00.000+08:00

okay, dapat ipopost ko ito kahapon ng umaga kaso for some unexplainable reason, hindi siya nagappear. of course tungkol nanaman ito sa libro na tapos ko na basahin. hehehehe. *apir!* sa sobrang bilis ko natapos, pwede na ako maging dakilang scholar. promise!

I am so good! (o dba? ang yabang?) hahaha. na break ko ang record ko sa pagbabasa. wala pang isang araw at tapos ko na basahin ung Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.

LUPET.

18 hours na dirediretsyo.

anyway, since super clear pa sa memory ko yung story. . . break down ko lang yung mga naging tama ko na hula from the half blood prince hanggang dito sa Deathly Hallows.

[warning. spoiler ito.]

R.A.B.

okay... ever since i read the initails R.A.B. I had a feeling that the locket in Sirius' house (ung hindi nila mabuksan) was the long lost horcrux. Which made me conclude that R.A.B. was Sirius' brother, Regulus Black. sobrang obvious naman eh.

Snape's allegiance.

When I read the half blood prince,.. i was pretty convinced that Snape was not entirely bad. And i was right to think that the whole death thing was Dumbledore's idea. in fairness naman sa hula, tama ako.

Snape and Lily

I knew there must be some sort of hidden relationship between Snape and Lily. I figured that Lily must have been Snape's friend since she tried to rescue him from the marauder's taunting in the Order of the Phoenix. I mean, technically, kung hindi mo naman friend ung tao --- di ka makikialam dapat.

Ollivander

I knew the wandmaker's disappearance was something to do with voldemort.kasi naman, obviously, hindi basta basta mawawala ung ganong ka-important na shop ng walang iron-clad na reason.

Dobby's importance

Somehow, I figured he was made for the purpose of rescuing the protagonist in a very crucial situation. pero never kong inisip na may mangyayari sa kanyang bad.

epilogue

although i didn't want them to be together, harry and ginny ended up in the end as well as Ron and Hermione. (one reaction about the pairing? YAk!)

Dudley

i figured that sooner or later... he'll learn to appreciate Harry for saving his life.kahit gano kasama ang isang tao, babaet un pag may utang na loob. hahahaha. hirit pa eh!

there'll be an extra horcrux

SABI NA EH! un lang ang masasabi ko. hehehe.(ano raw?) . according kasi sa book 6 meron daw 7 na horcrux. ung object na un ay ang mga sumusunod: Ring, Locket, Diary, Cup, tas something from hufflepuff or ravenclaw, Nagini tas ung 7th daw ung ressurected body ni voldemort. somehow, naisip ko na kung 7 horcrux ung gusto niya talagang gawin, hindi lang 6 objects ung lalagyan niya... gagawin niyang 7 un to be sure tas pang-8 ung mismong katauhan niya.

one thing bothered me kasi nung binasa ko ung book... i mean, bakit siya may clear access sa brain ni voldemort kung ang nangyari lang ay natamaan siya sa ulo at nagkaroon siya ng lightning-shaped scar. so ayun, out of kabarberohan tama ang hinala ko na ung scar ni harry, horcrux. Galing!

the cameo of previous characters seen in the first 6 books

i had a feeling na since may war... meron cameo appearance ung mga old characters such as Oliver Wood, Angelina Johnson, Alicia Spinnet (yan ung original quidditch team), Lee Jordan (original commentator), Cho Chang (although nasa book 6 cya... isang saglit lang ang moment niya), Michael Corner (book 5), Ernie Macmilan and the rest of the unfamiliar characters na maaalala mo lang ung name dahil binasa mo ulit ung first 6 books. =p

Fleur and Bill's wedding

sabi ko na eh... book 6 palang hassle ang pagkakaroon ng wedding sa book 7. alam ko na magkakagulo. although momentous ang moment... and natapos ung wedding vows, na-vibes ko na may mangyayari sa dulo. may war na nga eh... ewan ko ba kung bakit nagkasal pa. (and since hindi naman ako dapat magreklamo... di na ako magrereact)

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ito naman ung part na di ko expected.

okay first of... out of all the people who died, I never would've guessed ANY OF THEM.

honestly kasi, i thought it was gonna be Hagrid or Umbridge or McGonagall.

but then they all survived until the end kaya, boo! haha. nakakaasar dahil palyado ang guess.

NEXT... although akala ko lahat ng weasley safe... di ko inexpect na may mawawalang isa.

another pa, i never would've thought na may mangyayari dun sa muggle studies na teacher. hindi naman kasi siya nagappear sa first 6 books so i never gave the character some thought.

lastly, i never expected na magiging super important si Neville and magiging matapang siya tulad ng parents niya in the end.

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Ngayong tapos na ung buong Potter series... may bago akong favorite character... and semi-favorite... kung may ganon man.

Severus Snape.

although wala akong pakialam sa character niya dati sa book, ngayon ko lang narealize na ung pagka-NR niya... lahat un IMPORTANT. Looking back, meron siyang mga certain hirit sa previous books na kaaasaran mo pero pag binasa mo na sa last book... hindi pala ganon un. may meaning lahat.

Dobby

weird man dahil elf, hindi ko akalain na magkakaimpact ung character niya saken. sometimes, di mo din expected na kahit ung mga hindi important na character... malaki ang contribution sa overall impact ng story. believe me... di expected eh.

Dudley

weird na kung weird... pero ung drastic character change niya made up for every lame thing he did for the first 5 or 6 books.

Neville

proves to show that there's more to him than meets the eye. Late bloomer ang character na ito kaya okay din siya sa huli.

Luna Lovegood

in fairness naman, nakidnap na cya at lahat... hindi parin nawala ung loyalty niya sa friends niya... despite na buhay niya na ung nanganganib.

Rufus Scrimgeour

kahit super sama niya sa book 6 and sa first few chapters ng book 7... hindi siya entirely masama. tulad ni neville, there's more to him than meets the eye.

(end)

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

2007-07-21T05:56:00.000+08:00

just got my copy. Grabe ah. Effort na effort ang pagkuha ko dyan... Wala ng liguan bigla nlng akong nagtaxi papuntang taft nagbayad, nagtaxi ulit pauwi at ngayon, nasa bahay na ako. In fairness chapter 4 na ako. talk about excited. hahaha. takte yan.

all in all, sa 1 1/2 hour na pagalis ko... gumastos ako ng 1,300 para sa libro (discounted dahil excited ako at ang aga ko), 150 sa taxi ko nung papunta, at 140 naman ang taxi pabalik.

WoW. ang saya magwaldas ng pera... nakakapanlaki ng mata dahil sana pinambili ko nlng ng load o di kaya pagkain dahil gutom na gutom na ako. TSK, ito siguro pinaka impulsive na nagawa ko sa buhay ko. para kasing ang bobo eh. pagpunta ko naman dun ANG DAMING STOCK nung libro. Pa-reserve reserve pa ako. haller. sayang sa effort, men!

oh well, natutuwa naman ako so far sa progression nung istorya. tngna, 4 chapters palang may pinatay na.. (hahahhaa. spoiler! =p ) pero ayos lang.

all in, MAHABA CYA!!!!

it consist of 36 chapters + epilogue. LUPET. Can't wait to finish it. pustahan tayo tapos ko na ito by MONDAY. 3 days ko lang nabasa book 5 and super thick nun. (ngeee.. whatever.)

Oh well, all good things come to an end... Aura palang alam mong yun na talaga ang huli.

ika nga nung summary sa cover page:

WE NOW PRESENT TO SEVENTH AND FINAL INSTALLMENT IN THE EPIC TALE OF HARRY POTTER.

ni-ha ni-ho o pahiwatig na synopsis WALA. O siya, enough babbling. magbabasa nako. Charing. na excite lang ako kaya ko pinost. hahaha. whatever.

.compos project.

2007-07-14T13:40:00.000+08:00

share ko lang ung new song namin ni sarah sa compos. haha.ang requirement kasi dun sa project gumawa daw ng jingle for coke. ito ung take namin dun. joke joke lang ung recording kaya magulo pa siya. sana maayos pa namin ito. . . malay naman natin diba? baka makuha! hahaha. 2,5k per second din un.

music: sarah caballero and liz lorenzo
lyric: liz lorenzo
performed by: liz and sarah
guitar: joko
piano: tj ramos
notation: cha and james c.

explain ko lang bago niyo i-soundtrip kung bakit un ung naging lyrics para sa project namin... well, kung papansinin, wala kaming 'coke' na word sa kanta.pinattern ko cya sa 'just a smile' ni barbie na can relate lang ung tao pero hindi talaga cya nageendorse. gets?

ngayon ang target audience namin dito college students na namimiss na ung mga highschool friends nila. un ung emotional appeal nung kanta para bumenta. bow.

warning:
** kailangan gumagana ung Left and right speakers nyo para marinig nyo ng maayos ung song. super hassle kasi ung pagkarecord and medyo wala na kaming time kaya parang naka-pan cya... ung medyo mahina at ma-echo na part sa left speaker at ung maayos na part sa right speaker lumalabas... parang ganon ung sira eh**

.reunion.
di ko akalain matitikman muli ang dating kaligayahan
pagkatapos ng kay habang panahon
akala ko nawala na sa alaala
ngunit andito't nakatatak pa din
tara na, kaibigan paliparin ang isip at magbalik
para bang kumpleto ang tropa, balik ulit sa dating gawi

chorus:
halika, tara na, salubungin natin ang umaga ng may galak
tibayan muli ang pagkakaibigan
magsaya para bang walang problema

halika, tara na, salubungin natin ang umaga ng may galak
tibayan muli ang pagkakaibigan, . . . parang high school pa rin.
(end)

muse 00

2007-06-30T16:07:00.000+08:00

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pang-abnormal.

.twisted.
Inside my head, I'm willing to forget you. I'm willing to stay away from you, I'm willing to walk away. Inside my heart, everything I said is a lie. I really can't forget you. I really can't stay away from you. I really can't walk away. ref. but I'm still trying. . . and now I'm hiding. . . so please... stop coming back to me, chorus: stop coming in my head, stop coming in my life we both know we're never meant to be. stop coming in my thoughts, stop coming in my dreams. we really have to embrace reality. Inside my head, I'm willing to forget the memories, I'm willing to turn away from you, I'm willing to run away. Inside my heart, I can't help but tell the truth, I can't forget the memories I can't turn away from you, but I can pretend not to love you anymore. ref. cho 2 voices (verse 4 and chorus) fade.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOMMY!!!!

i love you. =) (july 1 bday ma.. haha. excited lang ako.)

belt advice. last na ito.

2007-06-24T17:32:00.002+08:00

okay. . . sabi ko move on na, diba?

ang hirap palang gawin nun. so instead of mumbling about the belt, naglagay ako ng pictures ng mga magagandang belt. Sana makita niya ito at magkaidea na mali talaga ung belt niya.

okay ito ung sinasabi kong plain na belt. isang color lang pero cute naman. hindi mo kailangan ng rainbow sa waist mo. . . okay?

next,

although hindi bagay saken ito... ang cute nung belt na ito. good sa girly girl outfits. diba? kung trip mo talaga mag-standout, daanin mo dun sa buckle. kaya naman nagstandout ung kakaibang belt na un dahil mali ung color talaga.

kung gusto mo talaga ng madaming colors. . bakit hindi nlng mga ganito piliin mo???

look, andami niyang colors. . . pero hindi naman cya masakit sa mata... or since gusto mo ng maaarteng belt na makinang... ito may crystal beads.

okay, hindi ako ma-belt na tao pero mga ganito naman ang belt ko... some of it looks exactly like the pictures... ma-kikay pero I rarely wear them. abnoy ako eh.

sige. . . ang kapal ko talaga mag-fashion advice... pero ang mali talaga nung belt. BOW.

.fashion emergency.

2007-06-24T00:10:00.000+08:00

okay. . . balak ko sana matulog ngayon kaso naalala ko ang imahe ng isang natatanging technicolored belt na talaga namang nagpagising sa diwa ko. . .

eto kasi un eh. . . hindi nakakatuwa ung belt ah!!!

and saan galing yon?! UN YON EH.

I tried shaking the image off my head, pero naman. . . I can still picture that wretched belt IN MY MIND.

hindi ko kasi maisip kung saan niya binili yon, bakit siya meron nun, at pano niya nakayanan indahin ang pagsuot nun.

Nakakatensyon ung belt. actually, pati ung tao. (ay. . gumanon daw. charing!). . . kasi naman NOH!!!! what's with the belt!?!?!?!?

bat kasi un pa ang pinili? bakit hindi nalang magstick sa isang plain na color?

or bakit hindi nalang niya i-match ung colors? or if not, gumamit cya ng colorwheel para ma-match nya ung outfit nya with complimentary colors or SOMETHING!! ANYTHING!!! basta wag lang ung belt na un... UTANG NA LOOB!

okay, baka isipin niyo ang feeling ko naman para magcomment about fashion or anything about it for that matter, pero here's the thing. . . i know how to dress myself up and i can proudly say that I have enough fashion sense to realize how hideous that belt is.

kung sino man ang fashion design dyan. . . hanapin niyo ung taong un ha? fix that person up para naman hindi na ako masiraan ng baet.

o cya. . . it's time to move on. leche ung belt na un. one time, pag tinopak ako. . . promise, pupunta ako dun sa bahay nun at susunugin ko ung belt. PROMISE!

portrait of a lie --

2007-06-19T12:22:00.000+08:00

lyrics ni chasy. . . ganda eh. kailangan ko talaga i post. hehe. sana makuha ng viva. go, chasy!!! cash un!

Portrait of A Lie

Stolen moments, Stolen Time

Frolicking in my mind

I see you running, I see me crying

After you whisper the words goodbye

II.

I tried to paint a portrait

A portrait of you and I

A portrait inspired by fantasies

A portrait that was indeed a lie..

CHORUS

Abrupt solitude and anxiety

Have been taking over me

But I'm waiting, still waiting

For you to come back to me

III.

Covered with tears and with blood

I dance slowly with pain

I'm all weak, I'm all numb

And have nothing to regain..

(repeat chorus)

IV.

A portrait of my desire

A portrait that I can't acquire

A portrait of you and me

A portrait that could never be

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random churva.

ayos ka din pala
kunwarian lang pala ang drama,
aminin na kung meron pang masamang binabalak.
wag ka na umimik kung di mo talaga gusto magsalita.
wag magbait baitan, kung gusto mo pala ng iyakan.
wala na akong pakialam.
siguro nga'y napagiwanan.
pero di ka ba nasasawa:
sa paikot ikot ng iyong pakiramdam?
sa padalos dalos mong desisyong
parati nalang mayroong nadadamay?
siguro nga'y okay pa sayo ang tinaguriang impyerno,
walang sisihan pagdating ng hukom.

papalapit na ang doom's day. i made my choice. i'm leaving na, guys! hehehe. it's a go! charing. pero seryoso.

kapag nagparamdam na ang muse

2007-06-18T23:29:00.000+08:00

share ko ung bagong song namin ni sarah. hehe. collaboration ulit. pero unlike nung 'kaya mo yan'... and ung 'Wag ng pilitin pa' --- this time, ako naman ang naglapat ng tunog... and si sarah na sa wakas ang lyrics. =)

i'll be placing the music here pagkarecord namin. un kasi ang balak ko para sa adretec final project namin... and if super nice ung kalalabasan, ibebenta namin kay nina... bagay sa kanya ung tono na ginawa ko... cross na 'again' ni janet jackson and 'butterfly' ni mariah... or baka feeling lang din ako. hahahaha. anyway... here's the lyrics...

c sarah nagsulat niyan so malamang bitter sa pag-ibig. ano beh. man hater pa din cya eh.

THAT'S NOT THE WAY IT FEELS

it's funny how they define love

kind when it makes you cry

true when it makes you blind

been there, and i know better

i guess that's not the way it feels

it's crazy how they see love

don't they see it just goes around

they make you fall, then you will crawl

they say it's great to be in love

but it's not the way it feels

Chorus:

Now i know what love brings,

i'll be stronger wiser than before

so i'll never fall, never fall in love again (2x)

i don't wanna fall in love

i'll never fall in love again

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next song... tribute song namin ni sarah sa aming prof. compos project namin ito. and believe it or not, 2 chords lang ang verse... haha. am and g.

you let me down

i knew this was coming

i'm sorry to have to say

goodbye

i can't take much

i need to let you go

please don't be mad

i hope this takes us well

we'll see each other soon

but for now i need to go

unsconciuosly hating

i can't breath

can't even talk

i need to say goodbye..

oh well, too bad... hindi masyadong mataas score namin dyan. tsssss. malay ko bang mahirap magnotate?!?!?! diba diba!? asar. oh well... u gotta love what u do.

music prod pa din... kahit luhaan ng dugo. bow.

goodmornyt fever

2007-06-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

buod

balita ko'y masaya ka na,
buti naman dahil muntikan na akong mabahala.
Kahit na ba ang mundo mo'y naninisi sa iyong pagkalugmok,
sige na nga... sige na nga... ako na.

balita ko'y may galit ka pa,
bakit naman hindi naman talaga tayo nagkalabuan.
Di mo kasalanan maipluwensyahan ng iba,
sige na nga... sige na nga... ako na nga.

kahit na ba di ako nabigyan ng tiyansang magpaliwanag,
di ako ang may sala.

sige na nga, ako na nga. sisihin mo na ang lahat sa akin.
bilisan mo na ang pagbaling ng lahat ng mali sa akin.
sige na nga, ako na nga. sirain mo na ako ng tuluyan.
pasensya na, pasensya na, di pa din naapektohan.

dahil alam ng diyos kung sino ang may mali.
dahil alam ng diyos na di ako ang nagkamali.
dahil alam ng diyos na di tayo nagkamali.
hindi mo lang talaga ako pinaniwalaan.

balita ko ay umaasa ka pa,
ako din naman umaasang maging kaibigan ka.
siguro nga ay hanggang dun nalang talaga ang ating hangganan.
hanggang dun na lang, hanggang dun na lang talaga.

sige na nga, ako na nga. sisihin mo na ang lahat sa akin.
bilisan mo na ang pagbaling ng lahat ng mali sa akin.
sige na nga, ako na nga. sirain mo na ako ng tuluyan.
pasensya na, pasensya na, di pa din naapektohan.

(ending)
dahil alam ng diyos kung sino ang may mali.
dahil alam ng diyos na di ako ang nagkamali.
dahil alam ng diyos na di tayo nagkamali.
hindi mo lang talaga ako pinaniwalaan.

kahit na ba di ako nabigyan ng tiyansang magpaliwanag,
alam na ng diyos.

the grudge

2007-06-02T21:13:00.000+08:00

i still don't wanna see you, talk to you, pretend to like you or even deal with you in any way!

I'd also appreciate it more if you try avoiding me too because your presence irritates me.

if you don't know who you are. . . sorry nalang. brain transplant na kailangan mo.

i wouldn't care too if you destroy my reputation or whatever. mas kaya kitang sirain 'coz i know stuff that could break you.

but don't worry, i'm not gonna play as dirty as you. . . 'coz honestly, you're not going to get any lower. YOU'RE ALREADY THERE. =) and i wouldn't want to go down to your level.

saying nasty stuff about me wouldn't strike me one bit. sanay na ako dyan. eh ikaw? have you heard what others think of you?

believe me. . . it will kill you.

if before, i was stupid enough to defend you. . . now? I guess they were right all along.

count your so called 'friends'.

do you really think that what they're actually saying to you is real?
or sincere? or even honest?

good luck, pal.

and one more thing. . . do they really value you as their 'friend' as much as you value them as one of yours?

think about it.

6 down, 6 to go. . .

2007-05-29T09:13:00.000+08:00

time can fly so fast. . . (woeh)

hehe, who would've thought na 6 terms na lang and kaboom!!! graduation NAAA? =)

ang bilis. . . parang kasisimula ko palang tas ayun... 3rd year na ako ngayon.

oh well. . . ang puso ko'y nababalutan ng pangamba (charing!) dahil hindi sure bet ang kurso ko.

okay, kasalanan ko naman talaga eh. I'm responsible for choosing music production. . . ngayong papalapit na ako sa doomsday. . . para tuloy akong nalilimitahan sa aking pwedeng matahak na daan.

dito na pumapasok ang aking pagaalala tungkol sa daang aking tatahakin kapag ako'y nakatapos na sa kolehiyo.

sa nakikinikinita ko. . . sa mga grumadweyt na so far sa aming kurso, ung may trabaho na music related pa lang ay ung mga taong kasapi sa mga banda.

pero eto un... hindi lahat ng music prod ay dapat dun tumungo.

balita ko kasi, ung ibang grumadweyt, may trabahong related sa marketing. . . (ano raw?!) ung iba sa call center. . . (nakikita nyo pa din ba ang bahid ng musika?); ung iba naman sa language international nagtuturo ng english sa mga korean or japanese. . .

ayon sa aking pagsusuri, isa pa lamang sa music prod ang nagkaroon ng katangi-tanging trabaho na related sa kurso namin ang natahak niya daan. . .

well, siya ay walang iba kundi ung unang una na gradweyt ng music prod... and as far as i know, sa abs-cbn cya nagwowork... and something course related din ang trabaho nya.

but then. . . hindi lahat swerte. . .

parang jurassic park din ang labanan sa tunay na buhay.

survival of the fittest chka gamitan ng instincts ang labanan.

t*ng*na. mag-aaral na nga ako. tsk! makaka-dl ako kung sineryoso ko.

siguro fly na nga lang talaga ako. = s

in that way, alam kong naka-set na future ko.

then let the game begin.

Wapak!!!

2007-05-25T14:52:00.000+08:00

ang tindi, pare!

yun lang ang masasabi ko after ko mabasa ung blog ni jeff. Grabe... affected ako sa ginawa sa kanya. Poor, jeff! anyway... kung may inuman man, count me in.

ang lupet talaga nun. it sucks na makitang may hinahalikan na iba ang mahal mo. Especially sa multiply pa ng ibang tao. that sucks.

by the way, tama din naman c jeff. . . it's her loss... kung alam lang niya kung gaano mo cya katinding minahal.

PATUGTUGIN MO NA UNG 1ST BEST SONG.

diba para sa kanya yon? tssss. saklap. pero tulad nga ng sabi ko dati (and this applies to you and chasy):

"nararapat na buksan ang isipan kahit nasasaktan; tangapin kahit pinipilit kalimutan; intindihin kahit nabobobo; at gumising kahit mas masaya ang managinip"

dito lang kami if ever. You're better off without her, I guess. . . chaka madami pa dyan.

Good Luck.

if you wanna read the blog... eto ung link. para sa mahina ang loob... LUPET!

http://jpards6.blogs.friendster.com/di_ko_ma_gets_bakid_nauso/2007/05/got_my_lesson_l.html

Ni Feng

2007-05-22T00:02:00.000+08:00

since wala naman akong magawa, may nahanap akong pampalipas ng oras. hehehehe. =) kinareer ko ito... andaming test nito. hahaha. wala talagang magawa eh.

Your Personality Is Like Acid

A bit wacky, you're very difficult to predict.
One moment you're in your own little happy universe...
And the next, you're on a bad trip to your own personal hell!

What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

uy.. medyo ang lupet ng result ko sa susunod. hehehe.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You Are 56% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.
Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.
But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.
You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

You Are 24% Spoiled

You're barely spoiled. You may have some nice things, but you never let them go to your head.

You appreciate each gift you're given - and you don't dwell on what you "deserve" to have.

Are You Spoiled?

You Probably Look Younger Than Your Age

You live a healthy lifestyle and know how to take care of yourself.
You'll probably have a youthful glow for many years.

Do You Look Your Age?

All American Kid

Popular but not plastic. Athletic but not a jock. Smart but not a brain.

You were well rounded and well liked in high school.

Who Were You In High School?

You are a Rocker Girl!

If you don't have musical talent, you've got a talent for picking out great CD's.
Music rules your life - and you've got the best MP3 collection of anyone you know.
Many guys find you intimidating, but a select few think you're the catch of a lifetime.
Start hanging out in more used record stores, and you'll find love with a fellow rocker!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

Your Life Is Worth...

$1,194,000

How Much Is Your Life Worth?

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent.
Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.

You would make an excellent:

Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor
Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer
Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer
Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor

The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

What's Your Ideal Career?

You are a Believer

You believe in God and your chosen religion.
Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu..
Your convictions are strong and unwavering.
You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.

What's Your Religious Philosophy?

You Should Be a Musician

You have a rare combinations of talents: an ear for music, nimble fingers, and the willpower to practice.
You could master almost any instrument you choose to play (if you haven't already!)

What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

grabe! ang galing nung sumunod na test. NAHULAAN NIYA!!! HEHE. galing.

You Are Likely a Second Born

At your darkest moments, you feel inadequate.
At work and school. you do best when you're evaluating.
When you love someone, you offer them constructive criticism.

In friendship, you tend to give a lot of feedback - positive and negative.
Your ideal careers are: accounting, banking, art, carpentry, decorating, teaching, and writing novels.
You will leave your mark on the world with art and creative projects.

The Birth Order Predictor

You Should Learn Japanese

You're cutting edge, and you are ready to delve into wacky Japanese culture.
From Engrish to eating contests, you're born to be a crazy gaijin. Saiko!

What Language Should You Learn?

Last na ito. hehehe. ayoko na.

You Are a Realist

You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass.
You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is...
But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on.
You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.

Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

.plans after graduation.

2007-05-19T22:41:00.000+08:00

mukhang lilisanin ko na ang bansang ito kahit labag sa aking kalooban. . .

ayon sa aking ina, pagkatapos daw namin grumadweyt ng kolehiyo ng aking kapatid na lalaki, nararapat na daw na lumipat na kami sa estados unidos para dun makipagsapalaran sa buhay.

noong pinaguusapan pa lamang namin ito, inisip ko kung talaga bang handa na ang puso kong iwanan ang bansang kinalakihan ko. . . gusto ko pa naman sanang tulungan ang bansa ko para naman umunlad ito kahit papaano. (kung meron man akong magagawa.)

sumangayon na nga pala ang dalawa kong kapatid sa nasabing paglilipat. ako na lamang sa magkakapatid ang hindi pa nagbibigay ng malinaw na kasagutan. di ko kasi alam kung nararapat nga ba akong lumipad doon para magkapera. . .

baduy kasi ako eh. iniisip ko kung magagamit ko ba pinagaralan ko dito sa benilde doon sa aking pupuntahan. . . o di kaya'y magiging masaya ba ako dun kung saka sakali?

sa bagay, wala naman naghihintay sa akin dito. . . at wala naman akong maiiwan kung sakali man na lisanin ko ang lugar na ito. ang nakatatanda kong kapatid ay nag-iisip ng tumigil sa pagkuha ng kursong 'law' at nagbabalak na siyang magtrabaho sa estados unidos. ayon sa natamo niyang degree sa kolehiyo, makakalikom cya ng malaking halaga sa pag gamit ng kurso nya sa paghahanap ng trabaho. meron pa siyang masteral degree na talaga namang dadaig sa mga kita ng mga kabatch nya na nagtatrabaho sa Pilipinas.

ano na nga ba dapat kong gawin?

gusto ko pa sanang mag-aral pero hindi din dito. tssssss.

gusto ko sanang sabihin na next time ko na proproblemahin pero. . . 6 terms na lang at BOOM!

kailangan ko na magdesisyon.

Go for the Gold, o magpakagago?

di ko ata kayang iwan ang Pilipinas. . . ANO BEH.

tssss. maya na nga toh. hassle.

para bang may kulang pa . . .

2007-05-16T02:07:00.000+08:00

di pa din. . . masaya.

Bakit, Bakit, bakit??? - Dr. Love ang drama.

2007-05-14T00:16:00.000+08:00

bakit ba masyadong obsessed ang mundo pagdating sa salitang: 'PAG-IBIG'?

ang weird lang dahil halos lahat ng kaibigan ko ay may prinoproblema... at pagsusuriin ng mabuti... lintek lang ah... problema pala sa love life ang drama ng karamihan sa kanila.

yung isa, nagda-drama dahil hindi pa niya nahanap ung para sa kanya. (my GOSH! so cheesy naman ah!) ang saken lang... BA'T KA KASI NAGHAHANAP??? un YON eh.

yung isa naman, may boyfriend... pero gusto niya yung best friend nung boyfriend nya... at ang complication dito... MU sila nung bestfriend ni BF niya. Grabe ah!!! pang telenovela ang drama ah! talagang love triangle ang pinili niyang factor na proproblemahin.

simple lang ang solusyon para saken ah... C'MON! piliin mo ung pinaka-matimbang sa puso mo tas ayon... happily ever after na. Kung di mo kasi gagawin un... eto ang magiging scenario... una -- magiging liar ka forever; at pangalawa -- LINTEK NAMAN... practice yan sa pagiging kabit.

I HATE THE WORD 'KABIT'. So mamili ka na, iha. at wag kang tatanga tanga. ikaw ang masisira kung di ka magiging honest. malamang maiintindihan ka ni boyfriend... mahal ka niya, it sucks lang na hindi mo na siya mahal.

pangatlong drama sa pag-ibig ni friend # 3 = Bakit daw siya laging naloloko? ang gusto lang daw niya meron daw siyang kasama at kausap.

eto kasi ang problema mo, dear. . . TANGA KASI ANG REASONING MO AH. okay... ang harsh, pero HOY! hindi BOYFRIEND ANG HANAP MO, okay?! kung gusto mo ng kausap... MAGHANAP KA NG KAIBIGAN.

eto kasi un eh... bakit ba kasi hindi mo kayang maging single, ha? hanap ka ng hanap... tapos kapag nasaktan ka... maghahanap ka ulit. ANO BANG MERON, HA? kaya ka kasi naloloko dahil hindi mo mahal ang sarili mo... PANO KA MAMAHALIN NG IBA KUNG HINDI MO ALAM KUNG PAANO MAHALIN ANG SARILI MO?!?!?! -- okay, cheesy ang dating at medyo may feeling akong nakuha ko ang linyang ito sa mga napapanood kong drama -- pero naman... YUN ATA TALAGA EH.

advice ko, magpaka-single ka muna... hanapin mo ang sarili mo. Hindi porket maganda ka at andami mong manliligaw ay aasikasuhin mo silang lahat. Babae kang matino... hindi ka pam-BUGAW, okay?

(tamaan ang dapat tamaan. i'm not saying your name.. pero alam mo na kung sino ka)

DILEMMA # 4 ng isa pang kaibigan = matagal na clang steady ni BOY pero ang drama... 3rd wheel pala cya all along... 3 years ng ON ung tunay na girlfriend. siya malapit na mag-1 year.

Four words: IWAN MO NA SIYA.

wag kang maging kabit. BOBO ang lalaki mo dahil in the first place... hindi siya aso. mamili lang siya ng isa.

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so bakit nga ba napaka-obsessed ng mundo sa salitang 'PAG-IBIG'?

kaya AKO? tssss...

wala akong pakialam. habang buong mundo ay nagpapakaloka... steady lang ako.

kaya kayo, guys... steady lang din kayo. Hindi naman kayo pinanganak sa mundo na merong boyfriend agad. kaya niyo din maging single.

WAG DIN KAYONG MAGMADALI.

tsssss...

naboboringan at nabobobohan ako...

pero pwede din kasi dahil wala akong alam... o di kaya.. hindi lang talaga ako marunong pagdating sa usapang puso. yun un eh.

oh well... whatever. Man hater na ako o kung ano man.

Ang sakin lang... eto yun eh... ayon sa isang quote na ipinadala saken na ewan ko kung bakit ko naaalala ngayon dahil matagal ko na un naerase ---

LOVE IS SUPPOSE TO MAKE YOU HAPPY, NOT STUPID.

over and out.

Starvation + loneliness + laziness = me

2007-05-13T04:24:00.000+08:00

super tamad ko ngayon. . . and i feel so tired. as in SUPER tired...

shet, parang 100 years na akong buhay. ganyan ang pakiramdam ko ngayon dahil sa sleeping disorder ko na talaga namang nasa peak na. nakakapagod ang pakiramdam. hindi naman ako nagsha-shabu. so BA'T BA GISING PA DIN AKO?!?!?!?!?!?!? YUN UN EH!

haaay... nakakabadtrip.

oh well... i am so hungry right now... pero naman! sa sobrang katamaran ko... ubos na ang supply ko ng food and water. only stuff i can eat here is a pack of peanuts and 1 small can of pineapple juice.

lintek... ANO TOH DIET???

para akong nagpapakamatay. haaaaay. i want to sleep na.

kinukulam nga ata talaga ako. BALIK SAYO UNG KULAM. PATULUGIN MO NA AKO.

hehe. thank you. bye bye.

cd review. babble. food poisoning. happy mother's day.

2007-05-13T01:22:00.000+08:00

okay... kakadownload ko lang ng buong album ni vanessa hudgens. oo na... baduy na kung baduy. GUSTO KO EH... hahaha. well, kung pakikinggan cya ng husto... ang boses niya ay parang crossbreed na Lindsay Lohan, Hilary Duff, at... c Mandy Moore. pero parang mas trip ko album ni Hudgens kesa dun sa 'speak' ni Lohan at 'metamorphosis' ni Duff. Mas trip ko ung pagka-pop nito... iba iba kasi ung variation nya kaya pasado. pwede na cya saken.

mga na-tripan kong songs sa album so far... 'Say Ok' ; 'Afraid' ; 'Rather be with you'

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next na album naman... soundtrack ng 300. syempre puro instrumental... pero grabe! LUPET. ang galing nung nag-filmscore nito. pinaghalo-halo nya kasi ung mga genre eh... tunog ethnic chka may touch ng world music tas gumamit cya ng theme na 'Indian' ang feel... tas as if hindi pa nakuntento... nilagyan pa ng astig na electric guitar riffs sa gitna nung pagka-indian feel na tunog.

ang hirap actually siyang i-describe... so kung trip nyo makinig ng mga instrumental lang na astigin... recommended ito. natalo niya ang version ni Patrick Doyle na Harry Potter sa tenga ko. maganda. pero syempre.. may iilan pa ding dragging. instrumental eh.

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Lion King OST -- oo na, kinareer ko ang pagdownload. di ako makatulog eh so kareerin! maganda ung instrumental parts nito... naaalala ko ung childhood days ko. favorite ko kasi talaga toh. Magaling c Hans Zimmer -- so far ito ung pinaka-magandang gawa niya to date... o sige, actually trip ko din ung 'the last samurai' nya... pero Lion King pa din ung pinaka nagstandout.

recommended: 'This Land' -- lakas ng intensity. =D

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The Fray (How to save a life) -- trip ko naman ung album... kaso pili lang ung mga nagustohan kong kanta... ung mga natripan ko so far ay: 'Fall Away' ; 'Heaven Forbid' ; 'How to save a life' ; 'Look After You' ; 'Over my head' ; 'Trust me' ; chka ung pinakagusto ko tlga.. 'Vienna'.

pucha.. halos lahat ata toh ah. hehe. well 7 out of 11 songs... hindi na masama ung album. okay cya for me.

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Avril Lavigne (The Best Damn Thing 2007) - okay... majority dito puro bubblegum pop. puro upbeat na 'hey mickey' ang dating! naloka ako... pero meron din isa na tunog punk na. aba! nagevolved c avril. hahaha. hindi na pop rock.. bubble gum pop / alternative / punk na cya! weird! pero at least hindi na lang cya punk sa panlabas. hahaha. may kanta na cyang punk.

ung mga magagandang songs sa album na ito ay ung mga songs na naka-piano.

ung mga natripan ko so far: Keep Holding On (pero bias ako... gusto ko kasi ung Eragon); When You're Gone (nakapiano ito.); Innocence (ito din nakapiano); Contagious; Hot (may katunog pero ayos lang); Runaway. cge.. tatangapin ko na din ung girlfriend.

all in all... nauubusan na ata cya ng melody... research pa. medyo nagiging magkakatunog na... especially ung 'Girlfriend' chka ung isa pa niyang kanta na 'The best Damn Thing' nagkakaroon ng moments na magkatunog cla. PATI DRUMS. ung isa naman niya na song... ung 'Everything back but you' -- maganda ung intro nya... di ko lang natripan ung paputol putol nung pagkanta... pero maganda ung bagsakan niya dun sa chorus part.

feeling ko masyadong namadali ang pag gawa nung album. hinay lang dapat para maganda lahat.
.end of cd reviews.
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grabe, nagsuka ako kanina. hassle... na food poison ata ako. may kinain ako pero di ko sure kung pwede pa cya o hindi na. hassle. kadiri. eeeeky tlga.

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Happy Mother's day nga pala sa nanay ko. =) have a safe trip. YEY. pauwi na kayo. hehehe.

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bow.

LiPA

2007-05-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

isang daang pagdadrama, kasiyahan at kaartehan sa buhay. apir

2007-05-09T00:11:00.000+08:00

malupet!!! ito ang ika-100 na entry ko sa blog na ito.

in fairness, sa dami ng naiipon na churva sa utak ko... kailangan ko din irelease.

and so ayun... 100 na ung entries ko... pinaghalong drama, kaasaran, kahirapan, kagalingan, at kabaliwan.

ito kasi ang nagsilbing outlet ko sa mga panahon na kailangan ko ng matinding karamay pero ayoko ng kausap... hahaha. labo pero ganon un. intindihin nyo nlng.

anyway,

feeling ko naman din walang nagbabasa nito. pero okay na din. mas okay lang na ako siguro. oh well.. tama na ang arte.

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chasy, condolence ulit ah? andito lang ako pag kailangan mo ng chismis. haha! joke. i mean, kung may kailangan ka lang. ok?

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kalabitin pa din sana siya. leche cya. bow.

..Another day..

2007-05-08T15:30:00.000+08:00

di ko pala kayang magkunwaring walang alam. di kasi ako ganon.

Ngayon ko narealize na tama nga ang sabi ng iba. . . kapag nagpaapekto ka, maiiinis ka lang. ayoko magpaapekto pero ganon eh... andun na un eh. para bang pag ayaw mo . . . mas lalong mangagago.

ayoko magago. ayoko talagang magpaapekto hayop naman. pero talagang naaapektohan ako. okay lang sana kung friendly friend ang drama para walang dilemma, diba? pucha.

sana pumalya ang vibes ko. taliwas sa nauna kong entry. PUMALYA KA! SANA PUMALYA KA!

sana mali para wala na akong problema.

hassle talaga. ayoko ng gulo. sana di na siya mangulo. madali lang ang mundo...

wag na sana akong idamay sa kaguluhan nila. leche. ayoko na. bow.

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From U.S. -- with Love.

2007-05-08T02:45:00.000+08:00

miss ko na c ma... hehe. di niya alam kinuhaan ko cya. gusto ko na cya makita. sobra.

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next picture... ikekwento ko lang ung aso ni tita yvie na c kapua... nakuha nila cya sa hawaii. napaka-arte.. mas maganda pa damit sakin at nakapedicure pa. LUPET. ang masakit pa dun... signature pa ung mga damit at may sariling lotion at grooming kit. sabi ko nga kay ma pa-ampon na ako kay tita yvie eh... mas mukhang tao pa ung aso kesa saken.

first two pictures: kapua na may sosyal na hat, next kapua na nasa bed.
2nd row: kapua and james; mommy and kapua na may bagong hat.
3rd row: kapua with hat and chinese outfit, mommy with kapua's spidey.

o dba? may laruan pa!!

ung picture ni ma na may hawak na pink na bag and elmo... lahat un kay kapua. anak ng kamote. sorry na ah. sorry kasi mas sosyal pa cya saken. ='c

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pride and prejudice

balita ko mapride daw c u-know-who. kapal. sige tiisin mo pa. sana kalabitin ka. very bad.

ur foolish pride won't take you anywhere. kalabitin ka sana ng malupit.

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condolence pa din, chasy. dito lang ako.

rest in pieces.

2007-05-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

naiyak ako paguwi. mahirap kasi magpigil ng sakit. especially sa mga usapang puso.

alam mo ung feeling na nakikita mong umiiyak cla pero alam mong walang halo na drama. Mga factor na parang biglang nagslow motion ang lahat tas ikaw lang ang nakakakita nung hinagpis... ung authentic na iyak na kahit hindi ka involved masasaktan ka dahil nararamdaman mo ung intensity nung moment. . .

un ang pakiramdam ko kanina. napaka-surreal.

alam mo ung feeling na ang zombie mo talaga? ganon na ganon eh. ung mga nakikita mo, ayaw mong paniwalaan... tas ung nararamdaman mo... ayaw mong pansinin. tas instinct na lang ang gumagana.

well.. to make the long story short. eto naramdaman ko nung na kina chasy ako. Alam mo ung mga factor na ayaw mo makinig pero naririnig mo parin. ayaw mo masaktan pero nasasaktan ka. Ayaw mong maniwala pero alam mong totoo. Ayaw mong malungkot pero umiiyak ka na.

Her mom passed away nung madaling araw today. So buong magdamag dinadamayan ko c chasy sa kanyang internal tragedy. i tried to be strong for her at nagsucceed naman ako. astig dahil makikita mo na despite nung nangyari, nagpuntahan friends nya... you can still see how blessed she is.

maraming nagmamahal sa kanya.

ayoko sabihin na life is short.

narealize ko kasi... life is fast... andun ka na sa brink end na pala.

anyway, God bless you, chasy.

I'll pray for your mom.

sabi mo saken may balak cyang umuwi ng August...

mukhang napaaga ang paguwi nya sayo. = c

andito lang ako whatever happens, okay? be strong. kaya mo yan.

Dan Michael

2007-04-28T20:57:00.000+08:00

share ko lang ung video na toh. ang funny... ginagaya niya si david blaine. benta tlga. matagal ko na toh napanood pero nung nakita ko ulit.. natuwa talaga ako.

Ramon Bautista a.k.a. Dan Michael Master Magician.

game addict.

2007-04-28T01:56:00.000+08:00

grabe.. dahil sa boredom may nadiscover akong game na bago.

a la Diner DASH!

Belle's Beauty Boutique

tas parang find wally pero crime churva ang drama naman nung isa pang game na sinuggest ni aidzz..

Ravenhearst

in fairness maganda ung games... nakakabobo lang ung Ravenhearst... mystery game cya. para sa mga taong bobo... at walang tiyaga mag-analyze... wag niyo na balakin laruin.

anyway, may kakakuha lang akong games pero di ko sure kung maganda...

Paparazzi and Ciao Bella... parang sims daw pero a la diner dash. labo pero ganon.

di ko pa na -try ung last 2 pero tinatapos ko muna ung Ravenhearst chaka ung Belle's bago ako magproceed. hahaha. feeling pala eh.

so ayun.. wala talaga ako masabi ngayon. nasa Cagayan De Oro c dad... haaaaay..

Home alone.

tsss... as if bagong kwento.

later.

.literally dying.

2007-04-25T20:44:00.000+08:00

im getting weaker and weaker. kaya dun sa mga may ayaw saken... magpamisa na kayo. tumatalab na ung mga damo na binibili niyo sa quiapo.

may kutob akong malapit nako mamatay. hahaha. morbid ang banat pero may kaunting katotohanan.

andami kong pasa dahil hindi ako makatulog.

immune na ang sistema ko sa tinitira kong pampatulog.

di ako makakain, di ko alam kung bakit ako nawawalan ng gana.

problema pa dito... wala akong kasama sa bahay. minsan lang kung nagkataon na walang lecture c daddy.

paano kung magcollapse nlng ako? edi walang may alam?

ang hirap magisa.

dito ko narealize na aanhin mo ang pera kung wala ka namang kasama kumain?
aanhin mo ang pera kung wala kang kausap sa bahay?

(ngayon alam ko na kung bakit andaming mayayamang nagpapakamatay.)

kakauwi ko lang ng bahay ngayon. Akala ko andito na dad ko... wala pa. tinawagan ko, nasa office pa cya.

kami na nga lang dalawa magkasama... di pa kami nagkakasabay kumain. hassle pa dahil nagkakasalisihan kami dahil sa sleeping disorder ko.

gising cya, wasak ako.
gising ako, tulog cya.

hassle ang sitwasyon pero steady pa din. tuloy ang ikot ng mundo...

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andami kong natutunan ngayong nag-iisa ako. in fairness, ako na namimili ng kakainin ko sa grocery. tangna, pang-nanay... pero no choice.

bestfriend ko ang microwave at mga takeout boys.

un malamang ang isa pang dahilan kung bakit ako nanghihina... masama ata na laging naka-microwave ang pagkain mo.

matagal ko na cnabe sa dad ko na magpapacheckup ako at sana samahan niya ako... pero lagi nalang walang time.

hindi nga ako cliente... pero anak niya ako. bigyan nya din sana ako ng konting importansya.

ok... hindi naman sa nagiinarte ako or something. ang point ko lang...

i feel sick. walang nagaalaga saken.

bata pa ako. (yeah, right!) haha. di ko pa kaya mag-isa.

haaaaaay. bahala na nga... ako nlng magisa magpapacheck up..

Good luck saken. bow.

creative juice

2007-04-25T03:02:00.000+08:00

okay...

i just finished posting my songs... woeh!

actually madami pa yan ... pero OA na.

you can listen to it by clicking at the right side of the blog... dun sa music part.

ang nasa playlist so far ay ang mga sumusunod:

1.Kahapon.

eto na siguro ang pinaka-final version. ewan ko kung kakareerin ko ba or whatever pero basta yan na un. Sabi nila tunog paramita daw. wow naman. pero ewan... para saken, tunog pop na pop so ewan... kayo na bahala.

Ginawa ko nga pala ang kantang ito noong 4th year ako dahil kwinento saken nung friend ko ang love life niyang sobrang puno ng puot at kasawian. kaya ayun. i dedicate this song to her. haha!

2.Kaya Mo Yan

eto naman ay isang collaborative work. c Sarah ang naglapat ng musika at ako naman ay ang gumawa noong lyrics. maganda ung ginawa ni Sarah in fairness... dito niya pinatunayan na hindi lang siya pang R&B. *apir!* Ang kantang ito ay ginawa para sa purpose na makasali sa isang competition dahil requirement cya sa isa sa mga songwriting projects namin. Ang theme nung pa-contest ay wellness ata... or something na tungkol sa clean living.. bawal ang drugs, anorexia.. churva-churva. Ang mga nagperform dyan ay ako at c Sarah. Yung panget na boses... malamang akin un. ung maganda, kay Sarah na un obviously. sorry kasi di naman ako singer. haller!

3.Ikaw-magpakailanman

isa nanamang requirement sa songwriting class ko. ito ang full band version ko. Hayop lang kasi na-compare ako kay Yeng anak ng kamote! Ni hindi ko pa nga naririnig mga kanta nun eh except ung walang kamatayang hawak kamay. .. oh well, for me, pop na pop cya... pero hindi cya Yeng.

4.Isipin Mo

ito ung pinanlaban namin nung fourth year namin sa songfest. COOL! Which ginamit ko din sa songwri para di na ako mabaliw. In this version... nagfeeling ako. ako kumanta dyan. hahahaha. oh well... feeling na kung feeling. Demo lang naman eto para sa Politics of Life the musical.

5.Wag ng Pilitin Pa

another collaborative work namin ni Sarah Caballero. In fairness, bagay na bagay sa kanya ung kanta kaya hindi na ako humirit. papanget lang un pag ako pa ang kumanta. hahahaha. Anyway, ang kakulitan dito sa kantang ito... ung lyrics namin ni Sarah dito -- joke joke lang. Na bore kasi kami sa NSTP namin at nagpasahan ng papel... tig 2 lines kami each tapos ayun kung ano lumabas... gagawan namin ng kanta. At eto na nga yun. Tada! Wag ng Pilitin pa. In fairness, yan ung pinakamataas na minarkahan sa Philmus. hehehehe. YEY!

So ayun... kung trip nyo pakinggan... andyan lang cya. kung ayaw niyo... tumahimik nlng kayo. hehehehe. hindi ako naghahanap ng opinyon.

NAKUHA KO NA ANG OPINYON SA MGA KANTANG YAN SA MGA TAO NA TAGA-MUSIC INDUSTRY SA STATES. walang stir.

nga pala...

Stephen Bachicha... ur the best! hahaha. salamat sa mataas na jury grade! LUPET.

Re: friendster messages

2007-04-23T16:06:00.000+08:00

hindi dahil medyo may pagkanegative ang sinabi sayo ng mga tao doesn't mean na gi-give up ka.

I believe that you're gifted. You're gifted with words. So regardless sa mga sinasabi nila...

You better believe in yourself.

Magaling ka... hindi mo pa na-feel yon.

tahan na.. wag ka na iiyak.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, FRANCE!!!!!!!!!

Mind GAMES

2007-04-22T15:13:00.000+08:00

you've done a lot of damage lately... grabe! after everything we did for you.

So typical of you.

hehehe. Oh well... okay lang naman. do whatever you like dahil tapos na ang araw na ikaw ang iniintindi.

hindi ginawa ang mundo para intindihin ka.

watch your words. malakas radar namin.

kung mabaet ka, mabaet din kami sayo.

pero once you've chosen your side... there's no turning back.

keep your friends close... keep your enemies closer.

And let the game begin.

confusion. mental debate. common text. hayop. ano bah!?!!?

2007-04-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

"aking puso'y di maintindihan
di maipaliwanag aking nararamdaman di maisip... ako'y naguguluhan."

"tanging may alam ako lamang, aking tinatago tunay kong nararamdaman
di ko kayang ipagtapat ipaalam."

"Puso'y nangangamba, naguguluhan..."

takte.. few months ago... this particular lyric means nothing to me. tngna! hanep sa banat.

for the first time in my life... ang vibes ko ay na-ma-mali. di ako maka-vibes. or... pwede din nakakavibes ako... pero wrong signal ang pumapasok sa utak ko. so in short, pumalya pa din.

tsss... andami kong gustong sabihin na hindi ko maintindihan. i hate this freakin situation. hayop!

di ko ma-organize ang sarili ko. ayoko kasi ung vibes... pero mukhang may laman ung vibes. PUCHA. WHAT'S UP!?!?!??! ANG GULOOOOO.

ANOOO BAAAAAAAAA! I don't know what to think anymore.

naalala ko tuloy 4th year. unahan, naunahan.. only difference is... walang race.

gets? malamang hindi. ako din di ko gets. ano vehhhh.

i want to share this freakin dilemma. takte... pero, hindi ko pa ma-organize ung thoughts ko so i can't really say something. Pero once i open my big mouth... patay gulay na talaga.

okay.. fuck. ito pinaka-extreme ko na craziness by far. i hate it when i can't feel my way out. kung may ganon man. tngna. usually naman kasi... ung vibes ang kasangga ko sa lahat.

dahil sa vibes na ito kaya ko nade-detect kung sino ang dapat samahan, i-trust, bigyan importansya and chances.

pero kung pumapalya cya ngayon... I AM SO DEAD.

i really need to figure this thing out before it gets out of hand.

Don't worry guys... this is not about drugs. hahahahaha. sabog ako pero hindi ako GANON ka sabog. ANG GULOOO lang.

my life is turning upside down and still... i don't know what to do.

haaaaaay!!!! ETO KASI YON EH,

ANO BANG MERON!?! YUN YON EH.

burning time

2007-04-15T02:56:00.000+08:00

okay guys... new template! =) hehehe. and yess... for the first time white na white. hehehe.

nga pala.. para sa mga friends ko dyan.. ung pinaka bagong version ng kahapon nasa playlist ko sa right. click niyo lang if you want to hear it. =)

so ayun... survey, survey muna ako ngayon sa blog... wla kasi akong magawa. hindi na kasi tumatalab sleeping pills ko kaya ayun. tangna, i need a new one. oh well...

survey time!

-*-
a to z...

1. A is for age:
= 20

2. B is for beer of choice:
= red horse

3. C is for career right now:
= musician. (woeh!)

4. D is for your dog's name?
= dead na cya eh.. bowow. pero if ever bigyan ako ng chow.. papangalanan kong beer.

5. E is for essential item you use everyday
= mirror

6. F is for favorite TV show at the moment:
= heroes

7. G is for favorite game:
= diner dash?

8. H is for Home town:
= Pinas

9. I is for instruments you play:
= piano and guitar ata.

10. J is for favorite juice:
= tomato

11. K is for whose butt you'd like to kick:
= o K

12. L is for last place you ate [at]:
= uh.. wala, house lang.

13. M is for marriage:
= undecided

14. N is for your full name:
= liz charmaine casiano lorenzo

15. O is for overnight hospital stays:
= matagal na un.

16. P is for people you were with today:
= dad ko lang.

17. Q is for quote:
= honesty is the best policy

18. R is for Biggest Regret:
= choosing to stay at home. pakshet.

19. S is for status:
= single

20. T is for time you woke up today:
= 5pm. di ko din alam kung bakit.

21. U is for underwear you have on now:
= tatak ba? bench. hahaha.

22. V is for vegetable you love:
= cauliflower

23. W is for worst habit:
= mannerism ko with my hair

24. X is for x-rays you've had:
= na-full body nako. i had my darker days. haha.

25. Y is for yummy food you ate today:
= laing

26. Z is for zodiac sign:
= sagittarius

-*-

LASTS:
8. last cigarette: no comment
7. last beverage: mineral water
6. last phone call: chasy
5. last text message: suncellular. hahaha.
4. last cd played: songwri compilation
3. last bath: kanina
2. last time you cried: nung umalis sila.
1. last meal: kanina lang. 12am?

SEVEN have you's:
7. have you ever dated someone twice?
- yes.

6. have you ever been cheated on?:
- i'm not sure.

5. have you ever hugged someone & regretted it?
- yes

4. have you ever fallen in love?:
- honestly? hindi pa talaga.

3. have you ever lost someone?:
- yes

2. have you ever been depressed?
- always

1. have you ever peed your pants?
- no

SIX things you did in the past six
days:
1. uminom
2. pumasok sa school
3. nang gago
4. nagpagago
5. kumain
6. nanood

list FOUR people you can tell pretty much anything
to --
1. mom
2. chasy
3. fran
4. sarah o and/or c

list THREE favorite colors.
1. pink
2. blue
3. acid green

list TWO things you want to do before you die -
1. travel the world
2. i-try maging mushy. hahaha.

within the last 2 weeks have you....
-Made a new friend?
yes
-Laughed until you cried?
no
-Gotten close to someone?
no
-Found out who your true friends were?
yes

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF

1. Bush?
- kind of plant?

2. Gay Marriage?
- nr. im ok with it. (sorry, God.)

3. Lowering the drinking age?
- im ok with it. kung responsible na ung umiinom, why not?

4. Straight, Gay, Bi?
- straight

6. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- no

7. Is there something you want to tell someone?
- nothing

9. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?
- ha?

10. How many people on your top friends do you know in real life?
- almost all.

11. How many kids do you want to have?
- yan ay kung balakin ko magkaasawa, diba?

12. Do you have a good relationship with your
parents?
- as far as i know... yes.

13. Do you wanna change your name?
- no... im ok with mine.

15. What time did you wake up today?
- answered this question already.

16. What were you doing at midnight lastnight?
- watching tv while uploading videos.

17. Name something you CANNOT wait to do?
- live in japan.

18. Last time you saw your father?
- uh, 45 minutes ago.?

19. Who's most likely talking behind your back right
now?
- sino pa ba?

20. Which hand do you like better on the opposite sex?
- huh?

21. What are you listening to right now?
- sound of music. woeh.

22. Have you ever talked to Tom?
- sino un?

23. Have you ever donated money to a good cause?
- i guess..

24. Have you ever talked about someone behind
their back?
- yes. because they deserve it. leche.

25. What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed
from anyone?
- pants

26. Who's getting on your nerves right now?
- who else?

27. Most visited webpage?
- my blog. and mail.

29. Coke or Pepsi?
- none

30. Do you have a crush?
- no.

31. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in
the past 2 weeks?
- yep. by my mom and sis. hahaha. just before they left for the U.S.

32. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in
the world?
- yes.

34. Do you enjoy your friendship with your friends?
- yes.

music video..

2007-04-13T18:47:00.000+08:00

okay... alam niyo naman siguro na merong tag-team ang Music Production, Multimedia Arts and Production design, diba? Anyway, highway (baduy)... ilalagay ko dito ung music video na ginawa nila dun sa song ko sa common text. ilalagay ko din sana ung kahapon na music video kung saan eh kahihiyan ko andun... kaso super laki nung file so... ikaw-magpakailanman nlng ung ilalagay ko dito.

anyway, explain ko lang bago niyo panoorin ung music video kung ano ung pinagawa samin... Naalala niyo ba ung entry kung saan nagpost ako ng lyrics na super haba? lahat kami binigyan ng isang text... (kaya nga common text) kung saan lahat kami ay required na lapatan ng tunog ung napakahabang lyrics na iyon. so anyway, ito ung take ko dun sa common text. You be the judge. Sana naman ay pumasa ako. May 2 versions talaga ito.. pero ung sinubmit ko ung first draft dahil feeling ko mas madrama siya... eh madrama ung song... kaya ayun.

CREDITS muna.

Ikaw-magpakailanman
lyric by: Ma. Amsther Tangco and Chynna Roxas
music by: liz lorenzo
Directed by: Katrina Albuera and Ma. Patricia Prudente (Production design)

(version 1) -- draft
vox and backup vox: liz lorenzo
guitar: tj fortune ramos

(version 2) - band/studio version
vox and backup vox: liz lorenzo
drums, bass and guitar: lawrence napoco

version one ung una kong nilagay... hehehe. ito ung pinanlaban nila. hehehehe. masaya kasi wala ako dyan. o eto... ung susunod naman, un ung band version... pasensya sa sounds dun sa pangalawa,,, hindi maganda ung pagkaburn... kaya ayun. u be the judge.

eto naman ung draft video nila... tas full band version ko.

Reasoning

2007-04-12T15:21:00.000+08:00

Everything happens for a reason.

Kaya... I'm happy for them(alam na nila un)... and I'm happy for my parents and sibs.

Thank GOD masaya na sila. hehehe. I gotto be honest... it didn't strike me one bit.

So to begin with, I'm not affected.

Maybe, just maybe... Wala talaga akong naramdaman.

Wala nga ata talaga.

Kahit ibulaga niyo pa saken yan. sorry guys... I don't give a damn! hahaha!

Pero eto... from the bottom of my heart. I'm happy for you.

we all have to leave the past behind us. diba? it's about time.

if we don't... mas malupit pa tayo... i mean, kayo pala... malupit pa sa grade school.

= )

let's stop this and move on.

tulad nga ng sinabi saken ni Liza nung high school which I'll never forget siguro...

"Stop thinking about what's done and grow up!"

true. do ur part.

Wake up...

2007-04-10T05:02:00.000+08:00

still didn't sleep... pero anyway, may mtv na pala ung favorite kong song dun sa bagong mojofly.

di ko lang masigurado kung wala na talaga c ricci gurango... i mean, he can't be. Siya gumawa nung group eh and he made most of the songs in the album. Sayang lang if ever.... magiging parang silent sanctuary sila...

anyway, ito na ung mtv ng WAKE UP.

parang tribute ung dating niya... nakaka-sad lang. hehehe. anyway. nice song.

HOME ALOOOOONE..

2007-04-10T02:37:00.000+08:00

okay... lintekish. (haha! what a term!)

this is it...

by thursday... i own the house all by myself.

takte.

tomorrow night... at exactly 10:30 pm... Flight ni bro papuntang San Francisco... (argh.. lakas ng bitterness tlga.. hahhaa.)

then thursday afternoon... my mom and my sister's going to hawaii and they'll stay there for like 5 days before heading to San Francisco to get my brother.

and then... as if parang sinadya... my dad's gonna fly to Cagayan de Oro for a lecture din.

tangna yan! grabe! Parang Modus... ang sarap sabihan ng:

"guys, thank you talaga for enjoying the summer without me!"

well, okay lang naman saken. hehehe. the idea of staying alone while i have a lot of things in my mind is sort of depressing lang.

Trouble is... mga 1-2 months silang wala. Di lang ako sure sa dad ko... baka 2 weeks ata cyang wala or whatever.

pero either way.. the whole thing is too long for me.

Sana lang iwanan nila ako ng pang-grocery dahil baka maabutan na nila akong patay and decomposing na. (joke lang... ang morbid nung joke.)

So ayun lang naman ung bitterness story...

kung walang songwri... Malamang kasama na nila ako. Hassle dahil pinili ko ang songwri...

i deserve an award! (gawad kagagahan award)

tsss... pinili ko magstay dahil i think i need to. ngayong paalis na sila... I'm starting to feel that i made the wrong choice.

pakshet.

= c

guys... patira sa inyo..

hahhahahaha. just kiddin. pero kung nasa puso niyong kupkupin ako... game ako.

i don't like to be alone. = c

lagi nlng ako mag-isa. tama na.

when depression kicks in.

2007-04-08T20:44:00.000+08:00

okay...

i don't really know what to say pero.. ayun. I'm really sad right now.

I'm sad because half of me feels empty and lost, and the other half, well, feels left out.

I just finished browsing my friend's blogs, friendster accounts and stuff and it seems that... well, it looks to me like I don't know them anymore. Most of them actually.

Majority of them progressed. And most of them are happy now.

Lucky for them because in a way... they did accomplish something worth it.

And I'm happy for them.

They've moved on and I'm still stuck here. Hoping for eternal bliss and all that nonsense.

Truth be told, the thing that bothers me after reading everything they had to say... is the fact that I don't think I can ever connect with them anymore. They changed a lot and I'm tired of adjusting.

i know it may sound harsh... bad... or whatever but I'm just sad that while everyone of them were having their moments... they forgot to include me, unlike the way I included most of them in my life for the past years.

say whatever you like... you can also say i sound bitter or whatever...

bitter na kung bitter.

true naman, diba?

I don't know you guys anymore and you forgot to introduce your new selves to me. Okay, maybe I can wait.

but you better check on me from time to time... Before you know it, when you finally realize you need me again... I may not be there anymore.

you guys might've changed and moved on... But then, when the time is ripe and I am ready... You won't see me in the same position where you left me anymore.

Guys, no regrets.

LG pictures.

2007-04-07T20:52:00.000+08:00

nothing special here. Just wanted to share some of my pictures here to kill time and stress.

forbes pictures. the person on the right is chasy.

next 3 pictures -- UP Campus. I took this picture while I was having a break while my MMA group were shooting scenery shots for their music video.

next 3 pictures... Jaipur snapshots. Okay, I don't really like the crowd that much so I was in the bar most of the time.

next.. dorm pictures. took this because I was lonely and bored.

last pic... well, there's nothing much to see here... so whatever.

excuse the tongue. i feel tired... oh well. later.

out of medication

2007-04-04T02:06:00.000+08:00

di ko mahanappppp

kaya gising padin.

hassle. = c

oh well.

in the influence of you-know-what.

2007-04-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

you need to stop coming back to me.

hassle!

tapusin ang gawain. bow.

can relate... = c

2007-03-31T01:11:00.000+08:00

Listen to the song here in my heart
a melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release

Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own
[ these lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
All 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own - my own

funny ramblings of the third kind

2007-03-30T00:27:00.000+08:00

funny. hahahahahha. affected si "mamamiya! mamamiya! surprise! surprise!" i've always thought you're gonna say stuff like that before pa. too bad kasi ngayon lang. hihihihi. ano ba yan? confessions of an old maid? or confession of a maria clara with a hidden agenda?

ang lakas ng Modus! Exciting! =)

don't worry. you only made me laugh with your lame ass comments. no harm done. =) i appreciate ur honesty. sometimes i'd rather hear you say what's on ur mind for a change than seeing you spread the word behind everyone else's back... which unfortunately gets into my radar sooner or later. (hahaha. satellite pala eh.)

you've used the same technique. pero hindi mo pina-secret. kaya congratulations for your progress. =) it's a start towards the road of redemption.

i guess it's about time that you change. Say what you want. Smile like you mean it. Be angry when you feel like it. Being ma-showbiz... or should i say, being plastic only worsen the case. hindi lang ung scenario... but you'll soon be loosing ur touch. you'll be more infamous. BAD UN... it's not cool to be popular in a negative way.

don't worry... I'm not asking you to be like me. Complicated maging ako. hehehehe. trust me. I'm just saying that if you want to say stuff that would eventually hurt others... you have two options:

1. Say it directly to the person involved. (coz you know you might help the person)

or,

2. Shut the hell up and keep it to yourself. (I mean, spreading the word would only fuel the fire.)

It's that simple, you know. life is simple. People like you just make things so damn complicated kaya ayun. There's a lot of unhappiness in this world.

You know what my dear friend...

I know that somewhere inside of you, okay ka naman talaga eh. But in order for things to work out... It'll require a lot of work from your part. Tapos na ang mga araw na ikaw ang iniintindi. In this world, give and take ang lahat.

I'll give you one last observation. . .

o cge... chance.

change ur fucking attitude for heaven's sake!

then maybe, i'll learn to appreciate you.

bitterness won't take you anywhere. it'll just lead you to your downfall.

Good luck and God bless.

you need it so much. SOBRA.

-*0*-

1251pmo329o7

euphoria

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Nasabi ng lahat ng poster!

I won't take no for an answer

Support for GARY GRANADA vs GMA Kapus0

Underneath it all

portfolio

Change?

mind boggling

How morbid can you get?

Magnet High Street - AROK DIWA EVENT

Magnet High Street - AROK DIWA EVENT

tired after work

It ends on Feb 14

Na disturb ako sa picture. =/

Round up (part 1)

Post holiday syndrome

Mensahe.

Award winning question

Heartfelt passion in every note

Cakes and Tears

THANK YOU LIST

I want it to be true. . .

Isa kang malaking NUISANCE

Senti-Sentihan

New Chapter, A New Page

.Musa - sounds and stuff.

New leaf

ang bagong yugto

kite runner

OJT - ang kakaibang mundo ng audio post prod

homophobia and the sad effects of drinking

.Assured.

Happy!

charinggerzee

What's happening?

Killing spree

Spice Girls The greatest hits cd

Sad...

.slightly rested.

Idyllic

I LOVED YESTERDAY - YUI's 3rd Album!!!

.yearbook. extremist. prejudice. life.

Finally

.semaj.eussi.

tasukete

.Taning.

.Taning.

tulong naman.

Pasko, Paksiw, Pasko

ang magulong mundo

/ba-sude-/cumpleazos/verjaardag/compleanno/

Inspired... =)

burning time...

.pagkauwi.

music drafts... "the making of the music"

The BUS. (literal)

Nursing vs Music Prod??

.tagged.

.the late update.

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

.compos project.

muse 00

belt advice. last na ito.

.fashion emergency.

portrait of a lie --

kapag nagparamdam na ang muse

goodmornyt fever

the grudge

6 down, 6 to go. . .

Wapak!!!

Ni Feng

.plans after graduation.

para bang may kulang pa . . .

Bakit, Bakit, bakit??? - Dr. Love ang drama.

Starvation + loneliness + laziness = me

cd review. babble. food poisoning. happy mother's day.

LiPA

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